He Is...

You don’t know how much it hurts her inside do you? Seeing you flirt with other girls, whilst she sits back and watches in the crowd. Yeah, she may have a smile on her face but deep down inside, she’s dying, dying to be heard, to be noticed and to have at least a bit of love from you. During the day, the smile’s on. During the night, well I don’t think you’d like to know. She cries herself to sleep each night thinking about you, and what could’ve, should’ve or would’ve been. She lays there, staying at the ceiling, with nothing in her mind but the “what if’s ” gushing through. She knows that it’ll never happen, but it’s worth hoping for right? Well that’s what she thinks. Another day, another fake smile. She’s nearly mastered the art of pretending by now. You really don’t know what’s happening? Maybe if you asked her “How are you?”, you’d be amazed.

i wonder..

You know how we feel when we’re in love? Inside, we lose control. We get nervous at the very thought of you. We don’t plan our day around Madden or our boys anymore, we plan it around how far it’s going to take to get to your favorite eatery to the movie theater. We wake up seeing if you texted us yet and if you didn’t we’re racing to say good morning to you. Our stomachs are unsettled, but in a good way. We want to impress you. We want you to be proud of us. We want you to send us indirect Twitter messages, hit us on BBM and say “Check your timeline” to see if we can pick out the message you wrote to us. We worry if we’re good enough. Are you satisfied. What do you need? We want to constantly make you happy. We feel the urge to make you lose the “Want” factor in your brain because we’ve given you everything there will ever be to give you. We’re not just thinking relationship, we’re thinking legacy. That’s what it’s like when boys are in love. Well, I know that’s how I am.

dunno why. when i see this, makes me wanna cry...

"i said goodbye to you"

"and now i can't forget you"

truth is...

I screwed up… i miss you a lot. every day, every i remember our time together, every time i heard your name… move on? yes I am. can you see? I like someone else, i try to. but I miss you much, love you much. it seems like almost a year ago we break up, you decide our relationship, then you come back then… we break up again, and you never come back. I always imagining you’re still with me. every night. but i don’t crying. One year… one year i always hope you come back. you never know how much i am fucking miss you now….

From: ME, TO: YOU

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oke kembali ke template lama, sudah tidak terlalu ngurus blog lagi.

jadi udah ga ngerti sama sekali, ga sama sekali juga sih.tapi banyak berkurang.

terus di template ini ga ada "archive" sm buat follow nya. jadi sabar aja yak.

gue nya udah males kalo ngerombak lagi-_-

tapi kalo ada yg tau caranya bole lah bagi bagi ilmu sama gue:p

oke cuma ini aja, kayaknya post ini adalah post yang paling gapenting-__-

oke capcus muah XOXO

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hello blog

lama ya gue ga ngurusin lo, mau gue ganti apa-apa, mau gue rombak gitu maksudnya malah males he --"

oke gue kembali menulis bukan untuk ngomongin kaya ginian, but it's about "how-i-feel-in-high-school"

yak you know :( i'm tired.

tired of high school, damn tired.

exam, lessons, the teachers. so many things i hate about my school.

TAPI.... sekolah gue ada hal menyenangkannya kok.

yap, my class x.5, my 29, my ospek, my bestfriend, my new bestfriends, ALL my new friends and you.

tapi gue capek, capek di sma;(

ga ada waktu bebas, ga ada waktu main, harus belajar dan belajar.

please, gue mau pindah.

high school killing me slowly but sure.

now i've trouble, big trouble in hs. makes me wanna die, and always cry.

i hate crying.... but my tears always come down when i think about it.

my friends always said "you're strong girl tash!"

no.... i'm not strong enough like you think guys.

gue nangis, gue sedih, gue takut, gue bingung mau ngapain.

better i'm move kali ya.

yes move, move to heaven