He Is...

You don’t know how much it hurts her inside do you? Seeing you flirt with other girls, whilst she sits back and watches in the crowd. Yeah, she may have a smile on her face but deep down inside, she’s dying, dying to be heard, to be noticed and to have at least a bit of love from you. During the day, the smile’s on. During the night, well I don’t think you’d like to know. She cries herself to sleep each night thinking about you, and what could’ve, should’ve or would’ve been. She lays there, staying at the ceiling, with nothing in her mind but the “what if’s ” gushing through. She knows that it’ll never happen, but it’s worth hoping for right? Well that’s what she thinks. Another day, another fake smile. She’s nearly mastered the art of pretending by now. You really don’t know what’s happening? Maybe if you asked her “How are you?”, you’d be amazed.

i wonder..

You know how we feel when we’re in love? Inside, we lose control. We get nervous at the very thought of you. We don’t plan our day around Madden or our boys anymore, we plan it around how far it’s going to take to get to your favorite eatery to the movie theater. We wake up seeing if you texted us yet and if you didn’t we’re racing to say good morning to you. Our stomachs are unsettled, but in a good way. We want to impress you. We want you to be proud of us. We want you to send us indirect Twitter messages, hit us on BBM and say “Check your timeline” to see if we can pick out the message you wrote to us. We worry if we’re good enough. Are you satisfied. What do you need? We want to constantly make you happy. We feel the urge to make you lose the “Want” factor in your brain because we’ve given you everything there will ever be to give you. We’re not just thinking relationship, we’re thinking legacy. That’s what it’s like when boys are in love. Well, I know that’s how I am.

dunno why. when i see this, makes me wanna cry...

so-me

I've just found it in tumblr. check out my tumblr @ http://tashabcd.tumblr.com ;)

She’s the type of girl who responds to guys who smile at her because she wants to be friendly. She is the type of girl who stare hard at the board when she does not understand what the teacher is teaching. She is the type of girl who acts like a kid because she misses her childhood. She is the type of girl who rather gets hurt by truths than lies. She is the type of girl who wishes for good things for people she loves. She is the type of girl who stay loyal to one guy when she learns how to love. She is the type of girl who hold on to memories even if it hurts. She is the type of girl I am.

She may talk to other guys. Laugh with them. Make jokes with them. But you’re the one that will always be on her mind. Because you’re what matters most to her. Because you’re the one she loves & fell for.

this-is-so-me. no offense thanks

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANITAA!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY BESTIE ANITA!!!!

wish you all the best!

ciyee udah 15 tahun, love ya :***

Promise

I can't promise you a perfect relationship. I can't promise you we'll never fight. I can't promise you I won't get jealous. But I can promise you it will be worth it. I can promise you I will make you happy. I will make you proud to say I'm your girl. & I can promise you a good time every time we're together. Just keep your word & I'll keep mine. Promise.

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I want to share some posts on my tumblr tashabcd , enjoy it ♥

(reblogged via inezkusuma)

stranger: ‘if you only got one word to say to your special someone, what would you say?’
me: ‘i’ll say, thanks’
stranger: ‘what for?’
me: ‘thanks for hurting me, thanks for giving me empty hopes, thanks for making me jealous, thanks for the shit you’ve done to me. BUT, thanks for making me smile everyday, thanks for making me laugh, thanks for being such a good friend, thanks for being there, thanks for everything, every single thing that you’ve done for me :)’ (reblogged via ddiras)

I hate to say it but I’m done. Now I’m all alone, thinking of our final goodbye. It wasn’t a lie, I did love you (reblogged via asridamayanti)

Girl: your new girlfriend is pretty. (I bet she stole your heart)

Boy: yeah... she is. (but you're still the most beautiful girl I know)

Girl: I heard she's funny an amazing. (all the stuff I wasn't)

Boy: she sure is. (but she's nothing compared to you)

Girl: I bet you know everything about her by now. (like how you knew just everything about me)

Boy: only the stuff that count. (I can't remember what she says when I think of you)

Girl: well..... I hope you guys last. (cause we never did)

Boy: I hope we do, too. (what happened to me and you?)

Girl: Well, I have to go. (before I start to cry)

Boy: yeah, me too. (I hope you don't cry)

Girl: Bye (I still love you)

Boy: Later (I never stopped)

(reblogged via hayomimew)

SOMETIMES WHEN YOU LEAVE, I JUST WANT TO LOOK YOU IN THE EYES AND SCREAM AT YOU TO HUG ME AND NEVER LET ME GO.

But you wont.

So why bother trying? (reblogged via secretsblog)

:3

gue mau post tentang 3 barang yg ada di kamar gue.

yang pertama adalah, kotak musik ini. hmm sebenernya bukan kotak musik sih, kan bentuknya ga kotak. tapi udah lah gue seneng manggilnya gitu. Ini tuh dikasih sama ya adalah, tidak perlu dibahas. pokok nya yg paling gue suka dari ini adalah ada sprinke-sprinkle nya kalo malem terus gue taro deket lampu jadi lucu deh. oh ya satu lagi, suara dari sini selalu bikin gue tenang. s-e-l-a-l-u ♥

Ini dia yg gue maksud :

Yang kedua adalah ini, my teddy bear. Ini empuk cekaleee deh, enak banget kalo dipeluk buat tidur. jadi gue kalo mau tidur selalu meluk ini. gue mau ngasih nama ke boneka ini, tapi masih bingung, temen gue si anith bilang kalo namanya tuh *pip* aja. ah tapi gamau deh, kapan bisa move on kalo namanya dia -_- makanya kalo ada yg mau usul nama kasih tau gue ya! mention di @tasha_kartika (twitter)

LOOK, SO CUTE <3333>

dan yang terakhir boneka ku tersayang mybaby muah :* call her MINNIE :)
boneka ini gue dapet dari 'you-know-who* waktu ultah gue, harusnya ada mickey nya, tapi mickey nya ada di *you-know-who* udah dibuang kali sama dia --" ah tapi lupakanlah. yg jelas boneka ini gue sayang banget, padahal tuh abis putus bonekanya gue taro lemari, tp akhirnya gue jd susah tidur gitu *lebih ya gue* tapi emang kenyataannya gitu. yaudah gue ambil aja lagi, lagipula ga ada salahnya kan? lagipula waktu itu dia ngasih buat gue kan? yasudah sampe sekarang masih gue simpen bonekanya. bukan karena gue gamau move on atau apalah, tapi karena emang gue sayang + suka sama bonekanya BUKAN orang yang ngasihnya.

SEE? gue sayang banget sama ini :*

Look! My teddy & Minnie :)

3 choice

I got 3 choices for our relationship, especially for you.

1. we continue our relationship, but we both changed.

2. we break for a while, and we continued again, wait until you're not bored

3. we end our relationship.

I certainly don't want to choose option number 3, I choose option 1.

but you?

I'm sure you want to try option 3.

What don't you ever feel?

I'm tired you like this, you don't notice me, not giving me attention, you didn't care about what happens to me, you don't give me a message or call.

like you don't need me anymore.

I can't say this directly in front of you, I can only write it, because I know if I say directly to you, you must think I'm selfish and you'd be mad.

YOU WRONG! you are selfish!

you know? s-e-l-f-i-s-h!

you are too childish

you are only concerned with what you feel, but you never think how I feel.

hey boy, I'm your girlfriend, not your toy.

I have a feeling, I have a heart.

you should be thinking "a little" about my feelings.

yesterday, I really need your help, but you can't, you don't exist,

What I never asked for help? Why would I ever?

I only ask you to accompany me to go, only that

but what? what you can?

NO! you can't!

you know? at the time yesterday that I feel you don't love me anymore.

as we celebrate 4 months, you don't speak to me at all.

"I love you, I want us to lasting 'blah, that's a BIG bullshit!

I don't need the words, I just want you to indicate "yes, I need you, I care about you"

only that

I guess you want us to break again, ohmy I do not want it: (

but what the hell am I like this, you wouldn't care. I want to follow you, oh please I don't cry, it's too much pain and tears that I give to you.

Lirik

If someone said that I forgot you

Do not you hear

If someone said I was faithful

Do not you hear

Lots of love came over me, I refused

It all just because I love you

If someone said I was not good

Do not you hear

If anyone tell me changed

Do not you hear

Lots of love came over me, I refused

It all just because I love you

When you remember me, I remember you

When you miss me, I also miss you

I know you always wanted me

I do the best I can do

God knows I love you

If you do not believe me

Pain I

If you'd heard what they said than I am

Sad I

Lots of love came over me. I refused

It all just because I love you .. Only you .

When you remember me, I even remember you

When you miss me, I also miss you

I know you always wanted me

I do the best I can do

God knows I love you

When you remember me, I even remember you

When you miss me, I also miss

I know you always wanted me

You know I also want to with you

I know you always wanted me

I do the best I can do

God knows I love you

♥ tasha ♥

What I feel -_-

This song just what I feel now. I can't say this, but I can only write it and share on my blog readers -_-

KISS - BECAUSE I'M A GIRL

It's impossible to understand what's going through a guy's heart.
You told me that you wanted me and now that I've given you everything, you tell me you're leaving.
You told me that it was the first time you felt this way, and said that I was special.
I believed you. . .
And it was my happiness
You should have told me if your feelings has faded.
I had no idea, and I continued you depend on you.
Altough I say, I hate you now, I'll be missing you.
Because I'm a girl, to whom love is everything.They say that when you give a guy all he wants, he quickly gets bored.
And now I know that's the truth.
And altough I tell myself, I'll never be tricked by love again.
I fall in love , and my heart is broken again.
You should have told me if your feelings has faded.
I had no idea, and I continued you depend on you.
Altough I say, I hate you now, I'll be missing you.
Because I'm a girl, to whom love is everything.They say that when you give a guy all he wants,he quickly gets bored.
And now I know that's the truth.
And altough I tell myself, I'll never be tricked by love again.
I fall in love , and my heart is broken again.
You should have told me if your feelings has faded.
I had no idea, and I continued you depend on you.
Altough I say, I hate you now, I'll be missing you.

Please, don't break the hearts of girls, who'll do anything for love.
I didn't know that living this life while being loved would be so hard.
Altough I say, I hate you now, I'll be missing you.
Because I'm a girl, to whom love is everything.

Altough I say, I hate you now, I'll be missing you.
Because I'm a girl, to whom love is everything.

*The Girl*
"Today we broke up.
You told me to meet someone better than you, and be happy.
You're just like the other guys.
What happened to when you told me that you love me?
Honestly, I don't want you to be happy.
What am I going to do if you really forget about me?
I'm in so much pain, more pain than I can bare. . .
Because I'm in still in love with you."

Please, don't break the hearts of girls, who'll do anything for love.
I didn't know that living this life while being loved would be so hard.
Altough I say, I hate you now, I'll be missing you.
Because I'm a girl, to whom love is everything.

Altough I say, I hate you now, I'll be missing you.

*The Man*
"There's someone in love with. . .
Altough I can't be with her now.
I'm still in love with her"

Because I'm a girl, to whom love is everything.

"open this link, if you want to view this video http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=F2et1sDa0B8"

"I only hope that you read my blog. You feel what I feel. And I hope we can as before. Please honey, I just want you to care. I'm sorry if I'm wrong about you. please, forgive all my mistakes. I just want you to know. I love you so much more than you know, even though I know, you never love me :'( AND MY LAST HOPE YOU ARE SENDING A MESSAGE TO ME AND YOU WILL CALL ME. Please Nieno, I just want it"

1 Month ♥

Yippie, today it's First Month with my Boy ♥

seneng ngga? Ya seneng dong :D
hmm sebenernya sih gue sempet marahan gitu kan sama dia, gara2 yaa adadeh -__- *terlalu vulgar kalo gue bahas disini karena nanti gue publish*

hmm, gue kan marahan nah terus ada tweet nya dia gitu yang bikin gue nyesek banget :

"kalo kayak gini baru sadar, buat apa lanjut"

nah abis itu langsung deh JENG JENG JENG, crying like a baby -_-
cengeng amat ya gue, dikit dikit nangis -_-
nah terus kan gue diem tuh lama, gue mikir bego ya gue kalo ngga baikan, masa besok sebulanan gue malah marahan.
Yasudahlah, akhirnya gue yang ngalah.
Emang gue kok yang lebay, gue yang salah, gue yang cengeng, gue yang harusnya minta maaf :')
yaudah kan ya, akhirnya gue nelfon tuh.
Langsung dong gue bilang maaf, eh dia bilang :

"aku ngga marah sama kamu, aku kecewa sama kamu. Aku ngga nganggep kamu pelarian, kalo aku gitu harusnya aku udah mutusin kamu."

Eh gue cuma bilang "maafin aku" sambil mau nangis kan, ngga lama telfon gue tutup terus gue bilang "nanti aku telfon lagi". Padahal mah bukan karena apa2, soalnya gue nya ngga kuat, guenya mau nangis denger dia ngomong kaya gitu -__-
Yaudah kan yaa, akhirnya gue telfon lagi.
Nah terus dia bilang "udahan nangisnya?" gue heran kok dia bisa tau ya gue nangis -_-
pokoknya setelah ngomong ngomong BLA BLA BLA, akhirnya SAYA BAIKAN DONG :]
yaudah kan gue baikan, terus nunggu gitu sampe jam 12 hehe

Nah terus gue ada panggilan baru baru buat dia, yaitu "Nyienyo"
kenapa gue manggil dia gitu? karena ade guu yang paling kecil Rara nyebut dia kaya gitu nah terus temanku anith juga nyebut nya gitu, makanya gue pikir lucu juga panggilannya haha :D

Yaudah kan ya, udah jam 12 tuh mata gue ternyata tinggal 5 watt, udah ngucapin sebulan kan, hihi ♥
nah terus dia nanya :
D : "kamu ngantuk yang?"
G : "ehm"
D : "tidur yang"
G : "iya"
D : "tidur yang"
G : "iya sayang"
terus gue tutup deh telfonnya, hihi dan gue tidur karena gue udah nagntuk banjet :O
ILYSM Nieno sayang ♥
oke deh ya, sampai sini dulu hehe
XOXO tasha :)

It's tuesday

sumpah ya, tadi gue bt abis di sekolah -_-
tau ngga kenapa? karena MATA GUE BENGKAK.

Pertanyaan (P), Jawaban (J)

P : "kenapa mata gue bengkak?"
J : "karena gue nangis."
P : "kenapa gue nangis?"
J : "soalnya nieno marah sama gue"
P : "kenapa nieno marah sama gue?"
J : "karena pp gue"

Nah makanya gue nangis semaleman, mana ngga ada sms, dia ngga peduli sama gue -_-
Nah terus nih, di sekolah gue nangis kan, apalagi pas pulang.
Pas nieno ninggalin gue, langsung gue nangis tuh *anjrit malu gue*
Nah terus pas dibawah tangga nangis lagi gue, pas di lapangan NANGIS LAGI GUE
GILAK NGGA GUE? GILAK BANGET YEEEE
NANGIS MULU KERJAANNYA.

sebenernya nangis tuh bego tah, gue ngerasa bego banget, soalnya nangis ngga nyelesain masalah sedikit pun.
Tapi ngga tau kenapa gue malah sering nangis -_-
Pokoknya gue bad mood banget deh tuh sampe Quantum aja gue badmood, sampe gue makan aja ngga mau *lebeh abis*
Yaudah akhirnya gue ngantuk banget tuh pas pelajaran pa martop, mau tidur.
Nah pas nyampe rumah, gue buka hp ada 2 sms, dan ternyata TIDAK ada sms dari dia.
langsung deh kisut tampang gue, tapi ngga nangis lagi kok tenang aja :D

Nah terus gue sms cile kan, ada anith juga tuh.
tapi cile balesnya lama banget, nah kata agus gue disuruh sms duluan.
Nah ngga lama sms cile dateng, dia bilang "Tenang, nanti nieno mau nelfon"
Disitu langsung seneng dong gue, gue harap beneran :D

dan TERNYATA, DIA BENERAN NELFON GUE.
WIHI SENENG DONG GUE, dia minta maaf dan pokoknya gitu lah
ah nieno, love you so much deh hihi ♥
Udah ah, sampe sini dulu
Bye, XOXO tasha :)

saturday night

yeah, hari ini malam minggu dan gue ngga kemana2 -_-
Malahan hari ini gue sama ade gue nonton 3 DVD sekaligus.
Yaitu :
1. Inkheart
2. UP
3. Pink Panther 2

Dan sekarang gue baru selesai nonton :D
Dan langsung online *seperti biasa*

Waktu ditengah2 film Pink Panther ade gue tiba2 ngomong :
A = Ade gue
G = gue

A : "teh siapa yang sms?"
G : "mau tau aja kamu" *sambil jauhin hp dari ade gue*
A : "cowo nya ya? siapa tuh namanya Nino ya?"
G : "yee apasih kamu Nino mulu"
A : "bilang aja iya. Teh kenapa sih dapet pacarnya ngga jauh2 ada no no nya juga?"
G : "takdir"
A : "emang yang waktu itu kemana teh?"
G : "mati, udah gue buang ke laut! Udah nonton jangan banyak tanya" *tampang sensi*
A : "santai teh, gausah ngamuk yee"

Oh ya, ngga tau kenapa sekarang gue lagi suka liatin foto2 nya Skandar Keyneys
YAAA, HE'S SO HANDSOME AND CUTE BOY ♥ ♥ ♥

Look he's Picture :

Handsome right?
I THINK YES ♥
Hihihi

OKE, sampai sini dulu ya.
bye bye and good night
XOXO tasha ♥