Monday, May 24, 2010

from my tumblr

you can see @ my tumblr tashabcd
"Guys are assholes. If you argue with him, you're hard-headed. If you're quiet, you don't care. If you call him, you're too clingy crazy. If he calls you, he says you should be happy. If you don't love him, he'll try to win you. When you do love him, he leaves. If you don't fck him, you're tease. If you do, you're easy. You tell him your problems, he says you're irritating. If you don't, he says you don't trust him. If you lecture him, you just want to argue. If he lectures you, it's because he 'cares'. If you break a promise, he doesn't trust you anymore. If he breaks it, it's because he had to. If you cheat, he expects it to be over. If he cheats, he wants another chance. They are BASICALLY the SAME. Guys drink to forget about girls, girls drink to think back about the guy. When guys are in love, they become poor; When girls are in love, they become pretty. Guys can forget but can't forgive, girls can forgive but can't forget. When guys are heart-broken, they try about the girl by going out with another girl. When girls are heart-broken, they try to find his characteristic in another guy. Guys wish to be her first love, Girls wish to be his last"

Guys and Girls is different. see? for many guys out there, please try to understand girls feelings. and for many girls out there we should not always succumb to the guys, remember that :)

Friday, May 14, 2010

no, you're wrong babe.


I thought we were everything. I thought we had everything.
There were problems, yes, but there is no such thing as perfection. I didn’t want any problems other than yours and mine but then you had to fuck up and leave me behind. You say you love me, you say you won’t forget me, you say all of this shit. I don’t even know what to believe anymore and I feel so empty trying to move on without you. What am I supposed to do with you gone? Physically gone, emotionally gone, completely gone. You want me to forget about you, but I can’t do that. You know I can’t do that :( how am I supposed to forget you??
I always thought I would be the one to leave, not you.
I miss you and it hurts so much.
I can only hope a few months from now, a few years, who knows, but sometime in the future, you will finally come back to my house and surprise me, just show up on my doorstep. Maybe I won’t recognize you, maybe you’d change all of your bad habits, maybe you would still love me. Maybe you would be exactly the same, but maybe, hopefully, you will still let me drown in your hugs because that’s all I want. I miss you so much..
dont you know you'll always be my baby?
you know? I can't move on 'till now.
BUKAN, bukan maksud gue gamau move on.
gue mau!
tapi tiap ada orang yg bilang ke gue.
'tash, dia lagi tadi abis gini gini sama cewek'
'tash, dia deket lagi sama itu'
lo tau? gue di depan doang bilang 'iya gapapa, itu hak dia kok mau deket sama siapa aja'
but you know the truth? my tears came down without my permittion.
lo benci gue nangis, gue tau lo benci, lo gasuka, lo bilang gue ga boleh cengeng.
tapi gimana? gue tau gue bukan siapa siapa lo lagi, lo udah benci sama gue.
tapi gue nggak -_-
lo marah liat tweet gue, gue ga pernah ada maksud buat ngatain lo, ngga pernah.
lo bilang gue udah move on, NO, I'M NOT!
mungkin lo yg udah move on, lo udah bahagia.
tapi gue tuh kangen tauga? kalo malem gue sendirian. biasanya siapa yang nemenin gue? LO.
sekarang? angin ac yg nemenin gue -_- udah ah jadi mellow lagi kan gue, bye :")

Monday, May 10, 2010

songs II

Already Gone lyrics

Now all our memories they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye

Even with our fists held high
It never would've worked out right
We were never meant for do or die

I didn't want us to burn out
I didn't come here to hold you, now I can't stop

I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road someone's gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I'm already gone

Looking at you makes it harder
But I know that you'll find another
That doesn't always make you want to cry

Started with a perfect kiss then we could feel the poison set in
Perfect couldn't keep this love alive
You know that I love you so, I love you enough to let you go

I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road someone's gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I'm already gone

I'm already gone, already gone
You can't make it feel right when you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on so I'm already gone

Already gone, already gone, already gone
Already gone, already gone, already gone, yeah

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye

I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road someone's gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I'm already gone

I'm already gone, already gone
You can't make it feel right when you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on so I'm already gone

Tattoo

Oh, oh, oh

No matter what you say about love
I keep coming back for more
Keep my hand in the fire
Sooner or later, I'll get what I'm asking for

No matter what you say about life
I learn every time I bleed
That truth is a stranger
Soul is in danger, I gotta let my spirit be free

To admit that I'm wrong
And then change my mind
i'm Sorry but I have to move on
And leave you behind

[Chorus]
I can't waste time so give it a moment
I realize, nothing's broken
No need to worry 'bout everything I've done
Live every second like it was my last one
Don't look back at a new direction
I loved you once, needed protection
You're still a part of everything I do
You're on my heart just like a tattoo


(Just like a tattoo,just like a tattoo I'll always have you
I'll always have you,)
I'm sick of playing all of these games
It's not about taking sides
When I looked in the mirror, didn't deliver
It hurt enough to think that I could

Stop, admit that I'm wrong
And then change my mind
Sorry but I gotta be strong
And leave you behind

[Chorus]

(Just like a tattoo, I'll always have you
I'll always have you)

[Bridge]
If I live every moment
Won't change any moment
Still a part of me and you
I will never regret you
Still the memory of you
Marks everything i do
ohhhhh

[Chorus X2]

Just like a tattoo
I'll always have you

kebanyakan nge post ya gue hari ini, ga penting semua lagi -_-
yaudah kalo ga suka silahkan keluar dari blog saya ehe, tp lagu-lagu dipost" gue hari ini cuma buat 1 orang kok, tp gue yakin dia ga bakal baca :p wkwkwk yasudah lah lanjut. see ya in next post ya *hugs&kiss* tasha :)

songs I

this song actually titled 'Go On Girl' but this song I'll change to 'Go On Boy'.This song is actually from boy to female, but because I'm a girl therefore I change it from a girl to boy, so there are some words that I changed :p if you want to see the original lyrics, search on google 'Ne-yo Go on Girl', now just enjoy the lyrics.
GO ON BOY
[V1:]
I can't get it back, but
I don't want it back, I realized that
He don't know how to act
Never been a dumb dude
No I'm not dense
I Just had a slight lack
Of common sense
I was the good girl
He was the bad guy
I'm thinking one guy
He thinking me, bla her and girl
Yep he had plenty
But love for me, he didn't have any

I was inviting, his into my heart
But he was out riding in some other girl's car
He was my night time, thought I was his star
Guess I was wrong, but see I'm strong
Wont take long for me to move on

[Hook:]
Please don't worry bout me I'm fine
(Please don't worry bout me I'm fine)
Only gonna play the fool one time
(Only gonna play the fool one time)
Trust me when I say
That I'll be OK

Go on boy
(Go on boy)
Go on boy
(Go on boy)
Go on boy

[V2:]
I can't get it back, but
I don't want it back, I
Realized that,
He don't know how to act
Tried to settle down and look what I get
Thought it was my time, but I guess not yet
He at the bar getting drinks from many women
I'm in the house, thinking he's with his boyfriends
Trust not knowing, truly not knowing
I look back now like, girl, I was open

I was inviting, his into my heart
But he was out riding in some other girl's car
He was my night time, thought I was his star
Guess I was wrong, but see I'm strong
Wont take long for me to move on

[Hook]

[Bridge]
The mistake I made is clear
(we never should've been together)
Thats the reason you're not here
(I know that I can do much better)
Not a single salty tear
Not a feeling in my chest
Baby I'm feeling no stress
I'm too fly to be depressed

Go on Boy
Go on Boy
Go on Boy
Go on Boy

[Hook]
Doin' Just Fine
There was a time when I thought life
Was over and out, when you went away from me
My dying heart made it hard to breathe
Would sit in my room because I didn't want to
Have to go out and see you walking by

One look and I'd break right down and cry
Now you say that you made a big mistake
Never meant to take your love away
But you can save your tired apologies
'Cause it may seem hard to believe, but

I'm doin' just fine, getting along very well
Without you in my life, I don't need you in my life
I'm doin' just fine, time made me stronger
You're no longer on my mind

You were my earth, my number one priority
I gave my love to only you anything you'd ask of me
I would do but somewhere down the road
You felt a change in the weather and told me that
You had to journey on a kiss in the wind and your
Love was gone

Now, you say you never meant to play
Your games, girl boy don't you know it's far too late
Because you let our love just fall apart
You no longer have my heart

I'm doin' just fine, getting along very well
Without you in my life, I don't need you in my life
I'm doin' just fine, time made me stronger
You're no longer on my mind

When you said goodbye, I felt so all alone
There were times at night I couldn't sleep
My heart was much too weak to make it on my own
Baby, after all the misery and pain you put me through
So unfair to me girl boy, you're no longer my world
And I ain't missin' you at all

I'm doin' just fine, getting along very well
Without you in my life, I don't need you in my life
I'm doin' just fine, time made me stronger
You're no longer on my mind

See, baby when you walked away
You didn't think it would end up this way
But I knew you'd be coming 'round someday

Karma - Alicia Keys

Weren't you the one who said that you don't want me anymore
And how you need your space and give the keys back to your door
And how I cried and tried and tried to make you stay with me
And still you said your love was gone and that I had to leave
Now you're Talking bout a family
Now you're saying I complete your dreams
Oh
Now you're sayin I'm your everything
You're confusing me
What you saying to me, don't play with me, don't play with me
Cause....

[Chorus:]
What goes around comes around
What goes up must come down
Now who's cryin', desirin' to come back to me
What goes around comes around
What goes up must come down
Now who's cryin, desirin', to come back

I remember when I was sittin home alone
Waitin for you til 3 o'clock in the 'morn
And when you came home you'd always have some sorry excuse
Half explaining to me like I'm just some kind of a fool
I sacrificed the things I wanted just to do things for you
But when it's time to do for me
You never come thru
Now you wanna be up under me
Now you have so much to say to me
Now you wanna make time for me
Whatcha doin to me, you're confusin me
Don't play with me don't play with me cause

[Repeat Chorus 2x]

I remember when I was sittin home alone
Waitin for you till 3 o'clock in the 'morn
Night after night knowing something goin on
Wasn't long before I be gone
Lord knows it wasn't easy believe me
Never thought you'd be the one that would deceive me
And never do what you're supposed to do

No need to approach me fool, cuz I'm over you

[Repeat Chorus]

Gotta stop trying to come back to me

[Repeat Chorus]

It's called Karma baby and it goes around

-_-

hm post yg gajelas oke -_-
bosen gue, jadi ya gue nge post iseng aja :D
gue mulai mikir sebenernya tuh arti dari kata 'biarin gue yg sakit, biar lo seneng' atau 'seenggaknya lo bahagia' itu tuh bukan arti sebenernya.
lo mikir deh, lo bilang gitu biar orang yg lo maksud itu nge-respon lo kan? atau biar dia sadar kalo lo tuh sayang sama dia. lo sebenernya ngga rela liat dia sama cewek/cowok lain.
coba mikir, apa lo rela liat dia bahagia, seneng" di depan lo sama orang lain? sedangkan lo? lo cuma nangis, berharap orang yg bikin dia seneng itu elo.
gue juga pernah bilang 'biar dia bahagia sama orang lain, gue rela' ----> kata" ini gue rasa cukup bullshit.
tanya kenapa? karena sebenernya waktu itu hati gue bilang 'ngga! gue ga rela lo milih dia! apa bisa dia sayang lo kaya gue sayang lo HA?'
tapi gue sadar gue egois banget bilang gitu, toh dia udah milih dan pilahan yang dipilih bukan gue.
nah kalo udah kaya gitu lo mau gimana? lo pasti marah, lo mau nangis, lo mau bilang 'apasih yang lo liat dari dia'. iya kan? hm wajar lah.
udah ah gue bingung mau nulis apa lagi bye :D

Sunday, May 9, 2010

LULUS + NEM

woho, hello readers :O
I graduated! YES!
goodbye junior high school and welcome senior high school :)
I hope I can be accepted at the school that I want
oh yup, I want to share my score in National Examination too! wohooooooo
my score is 36.20 :D
nice score, but honestly I was a little disappointed with my NEM, because its doesn't fit with my target. but never mind, with nem like that I was very thankful to god, god knows whats the best for me, thanks god :)



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