You don’t know how much it hurts her inside do you? Seeing you flirt with other girls, whilst she sits back and watches in the crowd. Yeah, she may have a smile on her face but deep down inside, she’s dying, dying to be heard, to be noticed and to have at least a bit of love from you. During the day, the smile’s on. During the night, well I don’t think you’d like to know. She cries herself to sleep each night thinking about you, and what could’ve, should’ve or would’ve been. She lays there, staying at the ceiling, with nothing in her mind but the “what if’s ” gushing through. She knows that it’ll never happen, but it’s worth hoping for right? Well that’s what she thinks. Another day, another fake smile. She’s nearly mastered the art of pretending by now. You really don’t know what’s happening? Maybe if you asked her “How are you?”, you’d be amazed.
You know how we feel when we’re in love? Inside, we lose control. We get nervous at the very thought of you. We don’t plan our day around Madden or our boys anymore, we plan it around how far it’s going to take to get to your favorite eatery to the movie theater. We wake up seeing if you texted us yet and if you didn’t we’re racing to say good morning to you. Our stomachs are unsettled, but in a good way. We want to impress you. We want you to be proud of us. We want you to send us indirect Twitter messages, hit us on BBM and say “Check your timeline” to see if we can pick out the message you wrote to us. We worry if we’re good enough. Are you satisfied. What do you need? We want to constantly make you happy. We feel the urge to make you lose the “Want” factor in your brain because we’ve given you everything there will ever be to give you. We’re not just thinking relationship, we’re thinking legacy. That’s what it’s like when boys are in love. Well, I know that’s how I am.
