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Kalian yang Cemburu...

2012-01-17T20:35:00.001+07:00

Rasa cemburu adalah bukti bahwa cinta harus memiliki.

Jika dia penting bagimu, janganlah malu untuk mencemburuinya. Karena itu sebuah tanda baginya, bahwa ia penting bagimu.

Janganlah mementingkan gengsi dan memalsukan kecemburuanmu, dan menggantikannya dengan lagak yang sok tidak butuh.

Dan janganlah memperburuk keadaan dengan berlaku rendah untuk membuatnya balik mencemburuimu.

Peliharalah keindahan tutur dan perilakumu.

Terbukalah mengenai rasa cemburumu. Sampaikanlah kepadanya bahwa engkau mengharapkan dia berlaku yang membuktikan bahwa engkau adalah satu-satunya.

Berlakulah baik, agar segera terlihat apakah dia jiwa baik yang disiapkan oleh Tuhanmu, atau orang palsu yang harus kau tinggalkan.

Itulah cara untuk cemburu dengan anggun.

Trololololololol

2011-10-16T20:52:00.002+07:00

What I Really Need To Say

2011-10-14T19:12:00.001+07:00

2011-09-30T21:06:00.003+07:00

I Must Let It Go

I cannot erase the past

I must let it go

I cannot change yesterday

I must accept the lessons learned

I must let this useless feeling go away

Far... Far... Away...

Because...

Kalau ada jodoh, kita jumpa lagi :"D

"If two people meant to be together, they'll find their way back" -Chuck Bass

Divortire

2011-09-30T20:55:00.002+07:00

"Aku tidak bisa berbohong dan berkata dulu aku tidak mencintai Beno. Aku jatuh cinta padanya. Habis-habisan. Dan dalam. You don't just get over something like that easily. Dan aku membencinya karena telah membuatku jatuh cinta padanya tapi lalu dia menghancurkan semuanya. Well, I participed in the ruining too, to be honest.
Mungkin benar yang dikatakan orang-orang. Opposite attracts, but two people who are so much alike are just like magnets with the same pole. Kesamaan itu justru menjadi pemecah, ibarat magnet berkutub sama yang akan selalu tolak-menolak. Apakah aku menyesali semua yang telah terjadi? Tentu. I'd be a cold hearted bitch if I don't. Kalau aku bisa memutar balik waktu, mungkin aku akan memilih untuk tidak jatuh cinta pada Beno karena sekarang aku sudah tahu semuanya akan berakhir seperti ini. " - Alexandra

"Alexandra, I hate to sound like chessy romantic novels, but just because he hurt you, doesn't mean it's gonna happen again when you open your heart again to the next guy, Right?" -Wina *Alexandra's best friend*

"Aku belum bisa bukan karena aku masih mencintai Beno, jujur. Yang tinggal cuma benci. Karena aku telah membuka hatiku dan menyerahkan segalanya buat dia, tapi ternyata dia lebih mementingkan pekerjaannya. Kejam rasanya bagaimana orang-orang yang sangat kita cintai biasanya justru yang paling menyakiti kita. Sekedar untuk menyadarkanku bahwa semua yang diawali dengan indah belum tentu berakhir sama. Meskipun kadang-kadang saat aku memandang tato ini, aku bertanya pada diriku sendiri :bisakah kita membenci dan sekaligus mencintai seseorang begitu rupa pada saat bersamaan" -Alexandra

"Beno is a fool for letting me go... Or am I the fool for letting him go? Karena selama ini cuma dia yang bisa membuatku selalu merasa aman. Karena cuma dia yang bisa membuatku jatuh cinta tanpa pamrih. Cuma dia yang bisa membaca pikiranku tanpa aku perlu mengatakan apa-apa. Cuma dia yang tahu bagaimana membuatku makin jatuh cinta dengan gestures kecil yang tidak penting tapi selalu datang di saat yang tepat" -Alexandra

"Emang setan banget laki-laki satu itu. Kenapa ya melupakan dia susahnya setengah mampus?" -Alexandra

"Sekarang aku takut ngejalanin suatu hubungan lagi, hanya untuk tersadar bahwa laki-laki arogan bangsat kurang ajar yang aku benci adalah laki-laki yang tidak pernah berhenti aku cintai"-Alexandra

"Aku selalu bilang ingin melupakan dia sepenuhnya, tapi entah kenapa aku selalu teringat dia" -Alexandra

"Salahkah aku kalau aku selalu merasa harus sakit dulu baru dia berada disisiku dan memperhatikanku?" -Alexandra

"You know Ben? for someone who's not even trying, you did a pretty job of hurting me" -Alexandra

"Dia tidak egois seperti Beno, tidak arogan seperti Beno, tidak sok penting seperti Beno. He's perfect. He's perfect in every single possible way. Dia bukan Beno. Dia sempurna karena dia bukan Beno.Dia sempurna tapi dia bukan Beno" -Alexandra

"Aku tidak boleh seperti ini. Ini hari aku mengakhiri semua hubungan, komunikasi, dan pertemuan dengannya/to stop communicating, talking, meeting, thinking, and caring. To stop having anything to do with him whatsoever" -Alexandra

"Kamu sadar nggak sih Ben? Kalo kamu perlu orang untuk merawat kamu karena aku sudah tidak bersama kamu lagi? Aku sudah tidak bisa lagi mengingatkan kamu kapan harus istirahat, kapan harus makan, dan kapan harus tidur. Aku sudah tidak bisa lagi menyelimuti kamu saat kamu tertidur. Aku sudah tidak bisa lagi membuat kan kamu teh hangat setiap kamu pulang kerja. I'm not here anymore. I'm not yours anymore" -Alexandra

Alex : "Ben"
Beno : "Ya?"
Alex : "What happened to us?"
Beno : "Us. Lex..... That's what happened to us"

Denny : "You wanna know why I would stay undor the rain for you?"
Alex : "Why?"
Denny : "So you can take care of me like you just did, and I kiss you like I just did"
Alex : *God, is this the guardian angel that you sent me?*

"Well... orang-orang selalu bilang 'lupakan Beno' ratusan kali, tapi bagaimana aku bisa cepat menghilangkan bayangan Beno kalau setiap saat ada saja yang bertanya 'Elo baik-baik aja kan Lex?' atau 'Beno apa kabarnya? Elo masih berhubungan sama dia?' atau 'Elo udah ketemu pengganti Beno?' atau 'Dulu waktu elo akan menikah dengan Beno, elo bener-bener yakin dia jodoh lo?' I mean, not trying to defend myself here, but how can I be completely okay if people keep asking me if I'm okay?" -Alexandra

"Some songs just bring out the best memories, dont they?" -Alexandra

"Kalau tujuannya mencari pengganti, sampai kapanpun ngga akan nemu. Yang harusnya gue cari itu laki-laki yang menyayangi gue, dan bisa bikin gue percaya cinta lagi" -Wina

Kim Na Na

2011-09-30T20:49:00.003+07:00

"Ayo kita jalani ini bersama. Aku nggak tau akhirnya akan seperti apa, tapi selama kita menjalaninya bersama-sama, nggak akan ada rasa sepi itu. Aku nggak akan meninggalkan kamu sendirian lagi. Nggak ada seorang pun untukku, kecuali kamu"

Leo

2011-09-30T20:40:00.004+07:00

"I don't know what pain until this day.
I don't know pain could make me want to go out from this life.
I don't know life is this full of betrayal.
I don't now life is this full of lies.
I don't know...... I just want to be saved.......
I just want to be saved..... But everyone's walking out....."

2011-09-25T19:22:00.004+07:00

After all this time.... why always you?

After all this exhausting lie.... why still you?

After all this stupid tears... why you?

If you think it was easy for me.

You're wrong. It's not easy, it's not okay, it's just make me screwed up.

Pretending over and over again.

"If you don't call, if you don't try -- then I don't"

He Is...

2011-02-01T20:33:00.002+07:00

You don’t know how much it hurts her inside do you? Seeing you flirt with other girls, whilst she sits back and watches in the crowd. Yeah, she may have a smile on her face but deep down inside, she’s dying, dying to be heard, to be noticed and to have at least a bit of love from you. During the day, the smile’s on. During the night, well I don’t think you’d like to know. She cries herself to sleep each night thinking about you, and what could’ve, should’ve or would’ve been. She lays there, staying at the ceiling, with nothing in her mind but the “what if’s ” gushing through. She knows that it’ll never happen, but it’s worth hoping for right? Well that’s what she thinks. Another day, another fake smile. She’s nearly mastered the art of pretending by now. You really don’t know what’s happening? Maybe if you asked her “How are you?”, you’d be amazed.

i wonder..

2011-02-01T20:23:00.002+07:00

You know how we feel when we’re in love? Inside, we lose control. We get nervous at the very thought of you. We don’t plan our day around Madden or our boys anymore, we plan it around how far it’s going to take to get to your favorite eatery to the movie theater. We wake up seeing if you texted us yet and if you didn’t we’re racing to say good morning to you. Our stomachs are unsettled, but in a good way. We want to impress you. We want you to be proud of us. We want you to send us indirect Twitter messages, hit us on BBM and say “Check your timeline” to see if we can pick out the message you wrote to us. We worry if we’re good enough. Are you satisfied. What do you need? We want to constantly make you happy. We feel the urge to make you lose the “Want” factor in your brain because we’ve given you everything there will ever be to give you. We’re not just thinking relationship, we’re thinking legacy. That’s what it’s like when boys are in love. Well, I know that’s how I am.

2011-01-26T20:41:00.000+07:00

dunno why. when i see this, makes me wanna cry...

2011-01-26T20:25:00.002+07:00

"i said goodbye to you"

"and now i can't forget you"

truth is...

2011-01-26T19:54:00.002+07:00

I screwed up… i miss you a lot. every day, every i remember our time together, every time i heard your name… move on? yes I am. can you see? I like someone else, i try to. but I miss you much, love you much. it seems like almost a year ago we break up, you decide our relationship, then you come back then… we break up again, and you never come back. I always imagining you’re still with me. every night. but i don’t crying. One year… one year i always hope you come back. ~~you never know how much i am fucking miss you now….~~

~~From: ME, TO: YOU~~

no subject

2011-01-26T19:44:00.002+07:00

oke kembali ke template lama, sudah tidak terlalu ngurus blog lagi.

jadi udah ga ngerti sama sekali, ga sama sekali juga sih.tapi banyak berkurang.

terus di template ini ga ada "archive" sm buat follow nya. jadi sabar aja yak.

gue nya udah males kalo ngerombak lagi-_-

tapi kalo ada yg tau caranya bole lah bagi bagi ilmu sama gue:p

oke cuma ini aja, kayaknya post ini adalah post yang paling gapenting-__-

oke capcus muah XOXO

post

2010-12-05T20:00:00.003+07:00

hello blog

lama ya gue ga ngurusin lo, mau gue ganti apa-apa, mau gue rombak gitu maksudnya malah males he --"

oke gue kembali menulis bukan untuk ngomongin kaya ginian, but it's about "how-i-feel-in-high-school"

yak you know :( i'm tired.

tired of high school, damn tired.

exam, lessons, the teachers. so many things i hate about my school.

TAPI.... sekolah gue ada hal menyenangkannya kok.

yap, my class x.5, my 29, my ospek, my bestfriend, my new bestfriends, ALL my new friends and you.

tapi gue capek, capek di sma;(

ga ada waktu bebas, ga ada waktu main, harus belajar dan belajar.

please, gue mau pindah.

high school killing me slowly but sure.

now i've trouble, big trouble in hs. makes me wanna die, and always cry.

i hate crying.... but my tears always come down when i think about it.

my friends always said "you're strong girl tash!"

no.... i'm not strong enough like you think guys.

gue nangis, gue sedih, gue takut, gue bingung mau ngapain.

better i'm move kali ya.

yes move, move to heaven

take a bow

2010-10-17T20:52:00.002+07:00

Ohh, how about a round of applause,
Hey, standin’ ovation,
Ooh, ohh yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

You look so dumb right now,
Standin’ outside my house,
Tryin’ to apologize,
You’re so ugly when you cry,
Please, just cut it out

Don’t tell me you’re sorry ’cause you’re not,
Baby when I know you’re only sorry you got caught,
But you put on quite a show (oh),
You really had me goin’,
But now it’s time to go (oh),
Curtains finally closin’,
That was quite a show (oh),
Very entertainin’,
But it’s over now (but it’s over now),
Go on and Take a Bow, ohh..ohh

Grab your clothes and get gone (get gone),
You better hurry up before the sprinklers come on (come on),
Talkin ’bout girl, I love you, you’re the one,
This just looks like a re-run,
Please, what else is on

Don’t tell me you’re sorry ’cause you’re not (mmm),
Baby when I know you’re only sorry you got caught (mmm),
But you put on quite a show (oh),
You really had me goin’,
But now it’s time to go (oh),
Curtains finally closin’,
That was quite a show (oh),
Very entertainin’,
But it’s over now (but it’s over now),
Go on and take a bow, ohh

And the award for the best liar goes to you (goes to you),
For makin’ me believe that you could be faithful to me,
Let’s hear your speech out?
(But you put on quite a show you really had me goin’),

But now it’s time to go (oh),
Curtains finally closin’,
That was quite a show (oh),
Very entertainin’,
But it’s over now (but it’s over now),
Go on and Take A Bow

But it’s over now

gatau kenapa gue lagi suka denger lagu ini. this is my "galau" song. ahahaah LOL

this is for someone, my "secret" person

so-me

2010-10-10T10:57:00.004+07:00

I've just found it in tumblr. check out my tumblr @ http://tashabcd.tumblr.com ;)

She’s the type of girl who responds to guys who smile at her because she wants to be friendly. She is the type of girl who stare hard at the board when she does not understand what the teacher is teaching. She is the type of girl who acts like a kid because she misses her childhood. She is the type of girl who rather gets hurt by truths than lies. She is the type of girl who wishes for good things for people she loves. She is the type of girl who stay loyal to one guy when she learns how to love. She is the type of girl who hold on to memories even if it hurts. She is the type of girl I am.
She may talk to other guys. Laugh with them. Make jokes with them. But you’re the one that will always be on her mind. Because you’re what matters most to her. Because you’re the one she loves & fell for.

this-is-so-me. no offense thanks

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANITAA!!

2010-10-06T19:15:00.003+07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY BESTIE ANITA!!!!

wish you all the best!

ciyee udah 15 tahun, love ya :***

twelve

2010-09-04T14:38:00.005+07:00

hellawr~
sekarang gue mau bahas tentang sma 12 ku tercintah :*
awal gue masuk sini, gue agak nyeselnyesel gimana gitu, yak you know gue awalnya berharap masuk sma rsbi, tapi apadaya nem gue bikin gue kelempar -_-
yup cukup menyesali nasib, gue udah masuk 12 ya mau gimana lagi, ternyata ga seburuk yg gue pikir kok :D

awalnya gue masuk ke kelompok mopdb ALEXANDER GRAHAM BELL
dan disini awalnya gue kenal anak-anak dari berbagai macam sekolah, disini gue masih sekelas sama anith lho \m/
disini menkel gue ka alif sama ka neta, orang baik terus sabar bangeeeeeeeeeet :))
selama 3 hari gue digodok disini, dari yang kenal sekolah tus kegiatan ya begitulah.
ini dia fotonya :P
tapi ternyata *jengjeng* kelas kita dipisah lagi semua :"(
dan ternyata gue ga sekelas sama anith, astaganaga nangis dong gue, langsung gue mikir "udah gue ga masuk rsbi terus ga sekelas sama anith pula, mau jadi apaan gue disini?!" sumpah itu sedih banget -_- dan akhirnya geu masuk kelas x.5 bareng imas, eren, abram, dll

ea x.5, awal masuk nya biasa aja. ga tertarik sama sekali. tapi itu cuma kesan awal lho
selanjutnya berawal lah hari hari gue di x.5, ternyata sangat beda dari apa perkiraan gue, anaknya asik semua *hem ga semua sebenernya*. wali kelas x.5 itu pak sholeh dia guru b.inggris, tus ketua kelasnya abram, wakil nya mathias, sekretarisnya gue ~.~ bendaharanya dida.
ini dia sebagian kecil x.5

eren-gue-dida

the girls~

gue-papay-eren-ayu-gea

itu yg diatas si abram -_-

dan ini dia ketua kelas kita!!! dia sekelompok mopdb lho sama gue~

oh iya gue juga ikut pk lho o_O
itu organisasi sekolah kaya osos gitu, gue jadi anggota bidang 9 \m/ ketua bidang gue ka aldo, orangnya kocak terus baik deh ahahaha. katanya bidang gue itu paling ribut soalnya gue sama ka aldi itu ngobrol terus u.u
anak 199 banyak lho yg jadi angbid pk/osis \m/ keren kan~
terus berlanjutlah hari hari yang banyak tugas di 12, indahnya sma ku sangat banyak tugas meskipun di saat liburan -_- tapi walaupun gitu gue seneng lho masuk sekolah, selain bisa ketemu tementemen, gue juga bisa ngeliat..... :P just someone who i can't tell to you readers :p

ahaha udah ah, gue bingung mau nulis apalagi, geu harus mengerjakan tugas.
okay bubye readers~ ttyl yaw:)) see you in next post :**

co-pas

2010-08-03T20:56:00.003+07:00

HELLO BLOGGERSSSS

long time no seeee, i miss you so much muah muah

ahahaha, oke udah lama ya ga nulis blog, dan yup sekarang saya mau nulis blog.

setelah tadi gue blogwalking, dan gue mau co-pas post ini dari Dina

enjoy :)

Can you name 30 people you can think of right off the top of your head? Don't read the questions underneath until you write the names of all 30 people. No cheating!

1. Safira Kusuma Dwita
2. Anita Puspita Sari
3. Farrah Intansari
4. Astrid Rahadiani Putri
5. Icha Kautsari Eka Putri
6. Nico Basastra Minov
7. Trikurnia Rahmadi
8. Dicky Bramuntyo
9. Nadieda Ayu M
10. Imas Mega Pratiwi
11. Erenya Jasmine R
12. Luthfan Adrinsyah
13. Bagas Raka Farizan
14. Nindya Kinanti
15. Inas Maisa
16. A.... N..... Y......
17. Syamsul Hidayat
18. Dwita Oktaviana
19. Ismia Intan
20. Abram Ebenezer
21. Syaifa Inanta Sari
22. Faradiella Damaputri
23. Mega Larasati
24. Karisma Adi
25. Luthfan Dwiafrianto
26. Tuti Ambarsari
27. Taufik Fajar P
28. Muhammad Rezky R
29. Nurlita Prima Regiati

30. Catur Wibisono

THE QUESTIONS:
• How did you meet 10?
- when i was 1st grade

• What would you do if you had never met 6?
- sedih banget!

• What would you do if 20 and 15 dated?
- Abram sama Inas? wkwkwk LOL

• If you could marry between 6 and 14 who will it be?
- Nico-Ninin? ajigile

• Did you ever like 9?
- as a classmate? yess!!

• Have you ever seen 4 cry?
- pernah!

• Would 4 and 12 make a good couple?
- Achy&Upan? wkwkwk bolebole :P

• Would number 1 and 2 make a good couple?
- masa ade gue sama anit... yang bener aja =_=

• Describe 8:
- besar, dewasa abis!!!! baik, lawak

• Do you like 12?
- yup! as a friend yaw

• Tell me something about 17:
- religius

• What's 7's favorite color?
- red, white

• What would you do if 1 just confessed they liked you?
- ade gue emang suka kok sama gue hahaha :P

• When was the last time you talked to number 15?
- udah beberapa bulan yang lalu :"(

• How do you think 19 feels about you?
- hahaha gatau deh

• What languages does 13 speak?
- bahasa indonesia, dia mah apa aja bisa kok

• Who is 2 going out with?:
- maybe rtw, JUST MAYBE ;P

• What grade is 16 in?
- same with me, but in different school :(

• What is 5's favorite music?
- neyo, craig david, Maliq!!

• Would you ever date 3?
- gila, gue normal ._.

• Is 11 single?
- NO, she's taken :D

• What is 10s last name?
- Pratiwi

• Would you ever want to be in a serious relationship with 7?
- TIDAK!

• Where does 18 live?
- pocip

• What do you think about 20?
- kocak! baik, ketua kelas yg baik wkwkwk

• What is the best thing about 4?
- too much

• Is 21 hard-working?
- maybe?

• What would you like to tell 14 right now?
- Bisryyyyy!!!!

• How did you meet 9?
- baru pas kelas 10 ini :3

• What is the best and worst thing about 2?
- the best? everything, she's a good bestfriend for me :3 worst? hmm idunno

• Are you going to know 3 forever?
- yeahhhhhh of course!

• How long have you known 26?
- 1 tahun-an lah

• Who is 24?
- classmate when i was 9th grader, and ........ old brother

• Are you or did you ever date 28?
- HA? APA-APAAN NIH? -________-

• Do you have a crush on 27?
- lah ini bisa pas? wk HEHEHE

• Would you kiss 25?
- NEVER

• Have you hugged/kissed 22?
- hugged pernah lah

• Is 29 your bff?
- sepertinya akan :3

• What do you hate about 23?
- apa ya mega??

• What's your relationship with 30?
- gamungkin wkwkwk, catur polos bet

look!

2010-07-10T17:20:00.002+07:00

hey readers!! gue mau nge post look gue yg ada di looklet gue tashaiueo open ya :)

sebenernya sejak bulan april gue bikinnya tapi baru sekarang gue urus, karena selama ini gue kalo nyimpen look ga bisa bisa mulu -_- sakit ati, tapi sekarang udah bisa kok :) hari ini gue ga nanggung-nanggung bikin look. gue bikin 10 :P

hahahaha, enjoy my look ya :)

1. My New Look

2. on the street

3. white look

4. shop girl

5. play with doggy

6. beach

7. nightmare

8. time to sleep

9. random

10. mask party

give me heart and comment ya, thankyou :)

fav :)

2010-07-09T22:19:00.004+07:00

gue mau share tentang 5 tokoh jahat yang paling gue suka. ok? enjoy :)

5. Elizabeth Bathory

wihi~ gue abis baca cerita tentang dia gitu di terselubung. and you know what?? dia tuh pembunuh berantai, dia udah ngebunuh sekitar 650 orang, dan rata-rata korbannya tuh cewek yg masih muda. dia itu ngebunuh sadis gilak --" jadi dia ngebunuh itu biar awet muda, jadi dia mandi pake darah cewek yg masih muda, sampe-sampe diminum darahnya. serem abis, cara dia ngebunuh itu jadi dia bakal ngiket korbannya terus nadinya dipotong sampe darah nya abis, and then dia mandi di darah korbannya itu ~.~ serem yak? tp akhirnya dia meninggal pas 52 tahun. kenapa gue suka dia? gatau kenapa, tapi abis baca ceritanya gue langsung tertarik aja sama si bathory, keliatannya bukan cuma cowok yg bisa ngebunuh sadis, ternyata cewek juga bisa.

Nah ini dia si bathory

4. Bellatrix Lestrange

ya pasti lo semua tau lah sama yang satu ini, secara siapa yg belum pernah nonton harry potter, yakan? yakan? dia tuh jahat terus setia banget sama voldemort kan ya? sampe ada yg bilang cinta sejati nya bellatrix itu voldemort *kok mau ya? gue mah ogah =_=* tapi tenang buat yg gasuka sama dia ntar dia mati kok di buku ke 7 gara-gara dibunuh sama nyokapnya ron! tapi gue suka sama dia soalnya sebagai tokoh jahat dia tuh cool abis!!!

ini dia si bellatrix

3. Maleficent

yeay! ini dia tokoh jahat dari film "sleeping beauty". pasti tau kan sleeping beauty?? nah orang yang buat aurora tidur adalah maleficent. sebenernya tuh sepele, gara-gara dia ga diundang ke pesta waktu aurora lahir terus dia ngasih kutukan deh. tapi.... gue suka dia tuh soalnya jahat-nya dia keliatan banget, dan dia juga bisa ngerubah diri dia jadi naga lho!!

ini dia si maleficent

2. Evil Queen

ini nih menurut gue penjahat yg tercantik di film film disney. dia ratu pula, ya tapi dia cemburu sama snow white, berhubung gue ngga terlalu suka snow white makanya gue jadi lebih suka ke evil queen :P dia yg tadinya cantik gitu bisa berubah jadi nenek tua yg jelek.. nice queen :)

Evil Queen!!

1. JOKER!!!

yeah HE'S THE WINNER!!!

daritadi kan gue bahas cuma tokoh jahat cewek kan? nah sekarang gue bahas yang cowok dan ini dia yang paling gue suka. Joker, kalo lo pernah liat batman and the dark knight nah ini dia si joker. gue baru suka pas joker disitu. dia tuh sadis tapi... keren cool!! lo tau dong bibir dia gimana, disobek jadi kaya senyum joker gitu. pokoknya tokoh jahat yg paling top menurut gue sampe saat ini joker, jahat nya POL! sadisnya mantepp! hahaha. tapi sayangnya heath ledger *pemeran joker* dia udah meninggal ga lama setelah film ini dibuat. hiks :(

The Joker :)

I wish that

2010-07-08T19:41:00.013+07:00

I just co-pas from my tumblr. I reblogged this from iwillbecauseican. hmm just remember about n ehe :P okay forget it. it really sucks -_- but... hmm just enjoy this post thanks :)

I wish that i had never met you, then there would be no need to impress you. no need to want you. no need for loving you. no need for crying over you. no need for heartbreaks. no need for pain or tears. no need for forgotten promises. no need for rejected hugs. no need for crying myself to sleep. no need for acting like you care. NO NEED, for everything you've done to make me feel like absolutely nothing...

BUT, then again

I'm glad i did meet you. 'cause you were the one who always asked me if anything was wrong. you were the one who loved me for me, just the way I am. the one who cared and tell me everything that'll be okay when everyone else didn't. the one who listened my story 'till last night. the one who stayed up late just to talk about the randomest shit ever or just to say "good night honey, I love you". you were the one who i told secrets to. the one who taught me new things, little things, and everything. the one who trusted me when everyone else said that i'm wrong, you said "i trust you, i couldn't trust anyone who said bad things about you, about us. i just trust you" see? you judge me in sweet way. the one who laughed at my bad jokes. the one who did things, just for me --" do you remember my promise? that i never forget you no matter what, and our promises that you'll always be mine. okay i always remember this 'till now.

ohya! goodbye 199.... hhh it's sooo hard to say this. too much memories in it. 7.5, 8.2, 9.6. i'll never forget 199 really. in 199 i meet many amazing people! i know about friends, life, love, and everything, i learn many things, many special things. em one more, i never forget balcony, yess i love balcony so much, especially when.... :) <3 and NOW!!!!!! welcome 12 SHS :) please be nice in 3 years ya :))

games?

2010-06-15T23:54:00.002+07:00

I try to play this game, I know this game from Dessy's blog.

And the results is: (maaf ada yg gue sensor karena jawabannya -__-)

I'm sorry :')

2010-06-15T23:40:00.003+07:00

Dear Brain:

I'm sorry for overloading you with thoughts of him :'(

Dear Tummy:

I'm sorry for all the butterflies.

Dear Pillow:

I'm sorry for all the tears.

Dear Heart:

I'm so sorry for all the damage

Dear Eyes:

I'm sorry when you must seems like mashimaroo

Dear Ears:

Sorry, for everything you must hear about him

Dear Mouth:

I'm sorry for all things that I talk about him

and Dear MySelf:

I'm sorry for all stupid things that I can do for him, I know I'm so stupid like this and that. Forgive me :'(

type

2010-06-15T23:24:00.003+07:00

aku dapat ini dari Nabilla

CO-PAS:

-My Type-

1. brown hair | black hair | blonde hair | red hair

2. tall | short | same height as you

3. ear piercings | eyebrow piercings | snake bites | no piercings | other

4. tattoos | no tattoos | idgaf

6. shy | outgoing | in between

7. mellow | hyper | loud | quiet

8. blue eyes | brown eyes | green eyes

9. wears tight jeans | wears normal jeans | other

10. converse | vans | nikes | skate shoes | other

12. compliments too much | compliments when necessary

13. jokes around all the time | jokes when necessary

14. sensitive | hides emotion | acts tough

16. loves to hold | loves to be held

17. tons of muscles | fit | skinny | chubby

18. pale | average | tan | dark

19. cusses a lot | never cusses | moderatly cusses | only cusses around friends | who even gives a fuck

Promise

2010-06-15T21:50:00.000+07:00

I can't promise you a perfect relationship. I can't promise you we'll never fight. I can't promise you I won't get jealous. But I can promise you it will be worth it. I can promise you I will make you happy. I will make you proud to say I'm your girl. & I can promise you a good time every time we're together. Just keep your word & I'll keep mine. Promise.

Spam-ing

2010-06-09T11:36:00.004+07:00

oke, gue mau spamming di blog gue yee, hahahaha.
soalnya gue keseringan spamming dimana-mana, apalagi twitter --"
ini gue juga gue baru ada ide kemarin malem, gatau kenapa gue pengen aja nulis kaya gini.
ini juga gue ngambil dari tweets gue, hm gue nulis di blog karena gue ga bisa nulis semua di twitter.
oke, cek cek!

pertama = Melupakan
pertanyaan yg paling sering di denger tentang ngelupain adalah "gimana lo bisa lupain orang yang udah ngasih lo banyak buat diinget?"
kalo menurut gue, jangan nyoba lupain orang yg pernah lo sayang atau apalah. it's NEVER working. percaya sama gue, mau lo nyoba kaya apa juga. lo awalnya pasti mikir gini kan "ah gue bisa lupain dia, gue bisa, dia aja bisa kenapa gue ngga?". dan awalnya pasti lo nyoba kan ngelupain, contohnya semua hal yg berhubungan dengan 'dia' lo ga pernah liat, foto, semua hal yg bisa bikin lo gabisa lupa sama dia lo jauhin. awalnya pasti lo fine lo mikir "udah ngga ada yg ngingetin gue sama dia". hey inget! bukan berarti 'dia' yg lo maksud itu mati, lo masih bisa liat dia, saat lo liat dia lo apa? sedih kan, terus lo liat lagi foto, lo ambil lagi hal-hal yg ngingetin tentang dia. see? usaha lo sia-sia banget kan? padahal lo udah susah payah. semakin keras lo usaha ngelupain, semakin lo ngga bisa ngelupain. honestly, gue juga kaya gitu, dan yeah kaya tadi gue bilang 'it's NOT working'. ga ada hasilnya sama sekali, gue malah keinget. saran gue, udah cukup lo jalanin aja, just let it flow. masa lalu bukan buat dinangisin, walaupun kadang masa lalu itu nyakitin. ngga ada salahnya kok lo nginget seseorang di masa lalu, tp jangan lo stuck di 1 orang itu. oke? :)

kedua = Perubahan
dalam tiap relationship, entah itu pacaran atau temenan pasti ada saatnya bilang "lo berubah". perubahan itu bukan hal yg nakutin kok, karena gue yakin semua orang pasti berubah kan? gamungkin lo hidup cuma stuck 1 tempat kan? lo pasti berubah. tapi ada perubahan negatif dan positif, perubahan itu belum tentu selalu ke arah negatif lho ya, dan belum tentu tergantung lingkungan lo, bisa karena diri lo sendiri. contoh simple: kalau lingkungan lo semua ngerokok, apa lo harus ngerokok? ngga kan. tergantung lo-nya, mau ikut ngerokok atau tetap sama pendirian lo. pengaruh-pengaruh dari orang luar tuh pasti banyak banget kan? tinggal lo nyikapinnya gimana. Perubahan itu kadang lo sendiri ngga nyadar kalo lo berubah, tapi orang lain. emang ini hidup lo, lo yg ngejalanin, lo yg akan terima akibat atas semua yg lo lakuin. tapi inget lo hidup itu ngga sendiri guys. dan yg penting nih. jangan nyuruh orang berubah kalo lo sendiri juga ga bener, sebelum ngerubah orang lo harus liat dulu diri lo, mau lo nanti orang yg pengen lo rubah bilang "dia aja ngga bener, kenapa gue harus?". iya kan? dan hal yg lain yg paling sering gue denger adalah "gue lebih suka lo yg dulu, yg blablabla, lo yg sekarang tuh beda blablabla" tadi gue udah bilang, kita tuh pasti berubah, ga mungkin lo hidup stuck. tp yg ngeliat perubahan lo itu orang lain, sometimes ada kok hal" yg ngga perlu kita rubah :)

ketiga = Janji
disini gue mau ngebahas tentang 'janji dari cowok ke cewek'
pernah denger ga ada yg bilang "janji itu dibuat buat dilanggar"? dan itu menurut gue kebanyakan orang kaya gitu. oke langsung ke topik.
janji ke cowok buat cewek, pasti banyak kan? dan kita para cewek, kebanyakan pasti percaya kan sama janji janji itu? ada saat gini, cowok janji ke kita untuk ngga ngelakuin hal yg cewek ga suka, contohnya rokok. oke itu awalnya pasti bilang kan 'iya aku janji ga ngerokok'. lo percaya dong? sekali dia ngingkarin janji, lo apa? lo nangis! tapi apa? lo maafin. kedua kali dia ngelanggar janji, lo kesel pasti, tapi lo maafin. ketiga kali dia ngingkarin janji, apa harus lo maafin juga? menurut gue NGGAK! karena lo tau apa? kalo lo maafin dia terus"an dia bakal ngelunjak, dia bakal mikir lo tuh lemah, padahal lo tuh ngga. gue yakin semua cewek tuh ngga ada yg lemah. pernah ga sih lo capek denger janji-janji? hey many guys out there, kita ga butuh janji, kita butuh BUKTI. oh ya satu lagi, cowok yg bener itu pasti bakal ngakuin kesalahan dia, dengan gentle. bukan bilang 'aku ngga kok' pake demi demi segala. halah basi tau ga cara lo, harusnya lo tuh ngakuin salah lo, seenggaknya dengan cara itu nandain lo tuh cowok, bukan banci.

keempat = Kerelaan
pernah lo mikir gini "gue rela kok liat dia sama orang lain"
lo tau ga? semakin lo mikir gitu, semakin lo boongin perasaan lo sendiri, semakin lo nyakitin diri sendiri. pasti dalam hati lo, lo ga rela kan? lo maunya dia sama lo, bukan sama dia. jujur pasti lo mikir gitu.
intinya lo tuh ngga rela, intinya lo tuh ga suka, lo ga mau.
gini deh, andaikan lo liat orang yg lo suka/sayang jalan sama orang lain, cewek/cowok lain, apa lo ga envy? pasti lo kesel, lo sedih, lo bilang dalam hati 'kenapa bukan gue?'
lo juga pasti mau kan, dan menurut gue, lo semua ga harus kok bilang rela kalau sebenernya lo nggak. bilang atau cerita ke sahabat atau nyokap lo. mereka pasti tau hal yg baik, lo harus gimana, ngga perlu lo keliatan kuat bilang rela padahal nyatanya ngga. inget semakin lo boongin perasaan lo sendiri, semakin lo tersiksa dan nyakitin diri lo sendiri. apa dia tau kalo lo sakit? ngga kan, dia ngga tau. jadi buat apa lo nyakitin diri sendiri kalo akhirnya dia juga ga peduli sama lo?

terakhir = Pilihan
Hidup itu pilihan, baik apa buruk. kanan apa kiri, jelek apa bagus.
jangan mikir lo bisa 22nya, karena pasti ada yg disakitin.
andai lo disuruh milih 2 pilhan yang berat, yg lo ngga bisa milih, lo mau gimana? sedangkan kalo lo ga milih itu bakal nyakitin banyak orang.
inget guys, di dunia ini lo ga bisa dapetin semua yg lo mau, lo harus milih.
dan menurut gue, kalo lo milih, dengerin kata hati lo. percaya atau ngga itu pilihan yang terbaik buat lo.
dengerin pendapat orang lain ngga ada salahnya kok, tp inget orang lain tuh cuma pendapat, cuma saran, tapi keputusan 100% ada di tangan lo. lo gabisa selamanya terus denger kata orang, ini hidup lo, lo tau yg mana pilihan lo, mana jalan lo. karena nanti lo yang nanggung akibatnya. inget, belum tentu kalo lo ngikutin kata orang, baik buat orang lain tapi ngga baik buat lo. jadi menurut gue sih denger saran orang lain, tapi lakuin pilihan lo.

oke segitu aja deh, panjang banget ye :p
yg gue tulis tuh no-offense ya, so maaf kalo ada yg tersinggung, gue cuma mau share :)

-gigi-

2010-06-05T20:18:00.001+07:00

Girls are taught a lot of stuff growing up: if a boy punches you he likes you, never try to trim your own bangs, and someday you will meet a wonderful guy and get your very own happy ending. every movie we see, every story we're told implores us to wait for it: the third act twist, the unexpected declaration of love, the exception to the rule. but sometimes we're so focused on finding our happy ending we don't learn how to read the signs. how to tell the ones who want us from the ones who don't, the ones who will stay and the ones who will leave. and maybe a happy ending doesn't include a guy, maybe it's you, on your own, picking up the pieces and starting over, freeing yourself up for something better in the future. maybe the happy ending is just moving on. or maybe the happy ending is this: knowing after all the unreturned phone calls and broken-hearts, through the blunders and misread signals, through all the pain and embarrassment... you never gave up hope.

"-"

2010-06-03T22:53:00.001+07:00

I guess its over.I'll no longer have you by my side to hold my hand.You'll never again kiss me with such passion,like you had in the past.Not anymore,do I get to hug you goodbye.You're still my true love-but this is me letting you pass me by

2010-06-02T21:10:00.005+07:00

I want to share some posts on my tumblr tashabcd , enjoy it ♥

(reblogged via inezkusuma)

stranger: ‘if you only got one word to say to your special someone, what would you say?’
me: ‘i’ll say, thanks’
stranger: ‘what for?’
me: ‘thanks for hurting me, thanks for giving me empty hopes, thanks for making me jealous, thanks for the shit you’ve done to me. BUT, thanks for making me smile everyday, thanks for making me laugh, thanks for being such a good friend, thanks for being there, thanks for everything, every single thing that you’ve done for me :)’ (reblogged via ddiras)

I hate to say it but I’m done. Now I’m all alone, thinking of our final goodbye. It wasn’t a lie, I did love you (reblogged via asridamayanti)

Girl: your new girlfriend is pretty. (I bet she stole your heart)

Boy: yeah... she is. (but you're still the most beautiful girl I know)

Girl: I heard she's funny an amazing. (all the stuff I wasn't)

Boy: she sure is. (but she's nothing compared to you)

Girl: I bet you know everything about her by now. (like how you knew just everything about me)

Boy: only the stuff that count. (I can't remember what she says when I think of you)

Girl: well..... I hope you guys last. (cause we never did)

Boy: I hope we do, too. (what happened to me and you?)

Girl: Well, I have to go. (before I start to cry)

Boy: yeah, me too. (I hope you don't cry)

Girl: Bye (I still love you)

Boy: Later (I never stopped)

(reblogged via hayomimew)

SOMETIMES WHEN YOU LEAVE, I JUST WANT TO LOOK YOU IN THE EYES AND SCREAM AT YOU TO HUG ME AND NEVER LET ME GO.

But you wont.

So why bother trying? (reblogged via secretsblog)

:')

2010-06-01T11:40:00.003+07:00

"Nimo ngga tau kalo gue ngga bisa lupain dia! dan gue ngga mau kehilangan dia lin"

Never Gonna Let You Go

2010-06-01T11:36:00.001+07:00

Never Gonna Let You Go - Tamia

I don't even know the reason why
You tell me that it's time to say goodbye, yeah
You can't even look me in my eyes
Did I do somethin' wrong?
If you tell me that the love is gone
I'll move over and I''ll let you move on, yeah
But I know that the love is still strong
So I keep holdin' on, so

Oh, I'm never gonna let you go
Even though it's breakin' my heart
All I'm tryin' to do is let you know
We can make a new start
So I'm never gonna let you go
Even though it's tearin' me apart
All I'm tryin' to do is let you know
We can make a new start

I remember back when we first met
The kind of love that you'd never forget
Makin' love 'till we were soakin' wet
And you're still on my mind, oh

After all the things that we've been through
You gotta give me time to talk to you
That's the very least that you can do
We can work it out with time, so

Repeat 1

Whatever you want, I'll make it right
Whatever you need, I will provide
I really want
You in my life
We can make a new start

Wherever you are, I will be there
The love that I give, none can compare
All that I have, I'll gladly share
We can make a new start

from my tumblr

2010-05-24T11:22:00.007+07:00

you can see @ my tumblr tashabcd

"Guys are assholes. If you argue with him, you're hard-headed. If you're quiet, you don't care. If you call him, you're too clingy crazy. If he calls you, he says you should be happy. If you don't love him, he'll try to win you. When you do love him, he leaves. If you don't fck him, you're tease. If you do, you're easy. You tell him your problems, he says you're irritating. If you don't, he says you don't trust him. If you lecture him, you just want to argue. If he lectures you, it's because he 'cares'. If you break a promise, he doesn't trust you anymore. If he breaks it, it's because he had to. If you cheat, he expects it to be over. If he cheats, he wants another chance. They are BASICALLY the SAME. Guys drink to forget about girls, girls drink to think back about the guy. When guys are in love, they become poor; When girls are in love, they become pretty. Guys can forget but can't forgive, girls can forgive but can't forget. When guys are heart-broken, they try about the girl by going out with another girl. When girls are heart-broken, they try to find his characteristic in another guy. Guys wish to be her first love, Girls wish to be his last"

Guys and Girls is different. see? for many guys out there, please try to understand girls feelings. and for many girls out there we should not always succumb to the guys, remember that :)

no

2010-05-14T18:00:00.003+07:00

I thought we were everything. I thought we had everything.

There were problems, yes, but there is no such thing as perfection. I didn’t want any problems other than yours and mine but then you had to fuck up and leave me behind. You say you love me, you say you won’t forget me, you say all of this shit. I don’t even know what to believe anymore and I feel so empty trying to move on without you. What am I supposed to do with you gone? Physically gone, emotionally gone, completely gone. You want me to forget about you, but I can’t do that. You know I can’t do that :( how am I supposed to forget you??
I always thought I would be the one to leave, not you.
I miss you and it hurts so much.
I can only hope a few months from now, a few years, who knows, but sometime in the future, you will finally come back to my house and surprise me, just show up on my doorstep. Maybe I won’t recognize you, maybe you’d change all of your bad habits, maybe you would still love me. Maybe you would be exactly the same, but maybe, hopefully, you will still let me drown in your hugs because that’s all I want. I miss you so much..

dont you know you'll always be my baby?
you know? I can't move on 'till now.
BUKAN, bukan maksud gue gamau move on.
gue mau!
tapi tiap ada orang yg bilang ke gue.
'tash, dia lagi tadi abis gini gini sama cewek'
'tash, dia deket lagi sama itu'
lo tau? gue di depan doang bilang 'iya gapapa, itu hak dia kok mau deket sama siapa aja'
but you know the truth? my tears came down without my permittion.
lo benci gue nangis, gue tau lo benci, lo gasuka, lo bilang gue ga boleh cengeng.
tapi gimana? gue tau gue bukan siapa siapa lo lagi, lo udah benci sama gue.
tapi gue nggak -_-
lo marah liat tweet gue, gue ga pernah ada maksud buat ngatain lo, ngga pernah.
lo bilang gue udah move on, NO, I'M NOT!
mungkin lo yg udah move on, lo udah bahagia.
tapi gue tuh kangen tauga? kalo malem gue sendirian. biasanya siapa yang nemenin gue? LO.
sekarang? angin ac yg nemenin gue -_-
udah ah jadi mellow lagi kan gue, bye :")

songs II

2010-05-10T21:25:00.001+07:00

Already Gone lyrics

Now all our memories they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye

Even with our fists held high
It never would've worked out right
We were never meant for do or die

I didn't want us to burn out
I didn't come here to hold you, now I can't stop

I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road someone's gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I'm already gone

Looking at you makes it harder
But I know that you'll find another
That doesn't always make you want to cry

Started with a perfect kiss then we could feel the poison set in
Perfect couldn't keep this love alive
You know that I love you so, I love you enough to let you go

I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road someone's gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I'm already gone

I'm already gone, already gone
You can't make it feel right when you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on so I'm already gone

Already gone, already gone, already gone
Already gone, already gone, already gone, yeah

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye

I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road someone's gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I'm already gone

I'm already gone, already gone
You can't make it feel right when you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on so I'm already gone

Tattoo

Oh, oh, oh

No matter what you say about love
I keep coming back for more
Keep my hand in the fire
Sooner or later, I'll get what I'm asking for

No matter what you say about life
I learn every time I bleed
That truth is a stranger
Soul is in danger, I gotta let my spirit be free

To admit that I'm wrong
And then change my mind
i'm Sorry but I have to move on
And leave you behind

[Chorus]
I can't waste time so give it a moment
I realize, nothing's broken
No need to worry 'bout everything I've done
Live every second like it was my last one
Don't look back at a new direction
I loved you once, needed protection
You're still a part of everything I do
You're on my heart just like a tattoo

(Just like a tattoo,just like a tattoo I'll always have you
I'll always have you,)
I'm sick of playing all of these games
It's not about taking sides
When I looked in the mirror, didn't deliver
It hurt enough to think that I could

Stop, admit that I'm wrong
And then change my mind
Sorry but I gotta be strong
And leave you behind

[Chorus]

(Just like a tattoo, I'll always have you
I'll always have you)

[Bridge]
If I live every moment
Won't change any moment
Still a part of me and you
I will never regret you
Still the memory of you
Marks everything i do ohhhhh

[Chorus X2]

Just like a tattoo
I'll always have you

kebanyakan nge post ya gue hari ini, ga penting semua lagi -_-
yaudah kalo ga suka silahkan keluar dari blog saya ehe, tp lagu-lagu dipost" gue hari ini cuma buat 1 orang kok, tp gue yakin dia ga bakal baca :p wkwkwk yasudah lah lanjut. see ya in next post ya *hugs&kiss* tasha :)

songs I

2010-05-10T19:51:00.004+07:00

this song actually titled 'Go On Girl' but this song I'll change to 'Go On Boy'.This song is actually from boy to female, but because I'm a girl therefore I change it from a girl to boy, so there are some words that I changed :p if you want to see the original lyrics, search on google 'Ne-yo Go on Girl', now just enjoy the lyrics.

GO ON BOY

[V1:]
I can't get it back, but
I don't want it back, I realized that
He don't know how to act
Never been a dumb dude
No I'm not dense
I Just had a slight lack
Of common sense
I was the good girl
He was the bad guy
I'm thinking one guy
He thinking me, bla her and girl
Yep he had plenty
But love for me, he didn't have any

I was inviting, his into my heart
But he was out riding in some other girl's car
He was my night time, thought I was his star
Guess I was wrong, but see I'm strong
Wont take long for me to move on

[Hook:]
Please don't worry bout me I'm fine
(Please don't worry bout me I'm fine)
Only gonna play the fool one time
(Only gonna play the fool one time)
Trust me when I say
That I'll be OK
Go on boy
(Go on boy)
Go on boy
(Go on boy)
Go on boy

[V2:]
I can't get it back, but
I don't want it back, I
Realized that,
He don't know how to act
Tried to settle down and look what I get
Thought it was my time, but I guess not yet
He at the bar getting drinks from many women
I'm in the house, thinking he's with his boyfriends
Trust not knowing, truly not knowing
I look back now like, girl, I was open

I was inviting, his into my heart
But he was out riding in some other girl's car
He was my night time, thought I was his star
Guess I was wrong, but see I'm strong
Wont take long for me to move on

[Hook]

[Bridge]
The mistake I made is clear
(we never should've been together)
Thats the reason you're not here
(I know that I can do much better)
Not a single salty tear
Not a feeling in my chest
Baby I'm feeling no stress
I'm too fly to be depressed

Go on Boy
Go on Boy
Go on Boy
Go on Boy

[Hook]

Doin' Just Fine

There was a time when I thought life
Was over and out, when you went away from me
My dying heart made it hard to breathe
Would sit in my room because I didn't want to
Have to go out and see you walking by

One look and I'd break right down and cry
Now you say that you made a big mistake
Never meant to take your love away
But you can save your tired apologies
'Cause it may seem hard to believe, but

I'm doin' just fine, getting along very well
Without you in my life, I don't need you in my life
I'm doin' just fine, time made me stronger
You're no longer on my mind

You were my earth, my number one priority
I gave my love to only you anything you'd ask of me
I would do but somewhere down the road
You felt a change in the weather and told me that
You had to journey on a kiss in the wind and your
Love was gone

Now, you say you never meant to play
Your games, ~~girl~~ boy don't you know it's far too late
Because you let our love just fall apart
You no longer have my heart

I'm doin' just fine, getting along very well
Without you in my life, I don't need you in my life
I'm doin' just fine, time made me stronger
You're no longer on my mind

When you said goodbye, I felt so all alone
There were times at night I couldn't sleep
My heart was much too weak to make it on my own
Baby, after all the misery and pain you put me through
So unfair to me ~~girl~~ boy, you're no longer my world
And I ain't missin' you at all

I'm doin' just fine, getting along very well
Without you in my life, I don't need you in my life
I'm doin' just fine, time made me stronger
You're no longer on my mind

See, baby when you walked away
You didn't think it would end up this way
But I knew you'd be coming 'round someday

Karma - Alicia Keys

2010-05-10T19:20:00.002+07:00

Weren't you the one who said that you don't want me anymore
And how you need your space and give the keys back to your door
And how I cried and tried and tried to make you stay with me
And still you said your love was gone and that I had to leave
Now you're Talking bout a family
Now you're saying I complete your dreams
Oh
Now you're sayin I'm your everything
You're confusing me
What you saying to me, don't play with me, don't play with me
Cause....

[Chorus:]
What goes around comes around
What goes up must come down
Now who's cryin', desirin' to come back to me
What goes around comes around
What goes up must come down
Now who's cryin, desirin', to come back

I remember when I was sittin home alone
Waitin for you til 3 o'clock in the 'morn
And when you came home you'd always have some sorry excuse
Half explaining to me like I'm just some kind of a fool
I sacrificed the things I wanted just to do things for you
But when it's time to do for me
You never come thru
Now you wanna be up under me
Now you have so much to say to me
Now you wanna make time for me
Whatcha doin to me, you're confusin me
Don't play with me don't play with me cause

[Repeat Chorus 2x]

I remember when I was sittin home alone
Waitin for you till 3 o'clock in the 'morn
Night after night knowing something goin on
Wasn't long before I be gone
Lord knows it wasn't easy believe me
Never thought you'd be the one that would deceive me
And never do what you're supposed to do
No need to approach me fool, cuz I'm over you

[Repeat Chorus]

Gotta stop trying to come back to me

[Repeat Chorus]

It's called Karma baby and it goes around

-_-

2010-05-10T18:28:00.002+07:00

hm post yg gajelas oke -_-
bosen gue, jadi ya gue nge post iseng aja :D
gue mulai mikir sebenernya tuh arti dari kata 'biarin gue yg sakit, biar lo seneng' atau 'seenggaknya lo bahagia' itu tuh bukan arti sebenernya.
lo mikir deh, lo bilang gitu biar orang yg lo maksud itu nge-respon lo kan? atau biar dia sadar kalo lo tuh sayang sama dia. lo sebenernya ngga rela liat dia sama cewek/cowok lain.
coba mikir, apa lo rela liat dia bahagia, seneng" di depan lo sama orang lain? sedangkan lo? lo cuma nangis, berharap orang yg bikin dia seneng itu elo.
gue juga pernah bilang 'biar dia bahagia sama orang lain, gue rela' ----> kata" ini gue rasa cukup bullshit.
tanya kenapa? karena sebenernya waktu itu hati gue bilang 'ngga! gue ga rela lo milih dia! apa bisa dia sayang lo kaya gue sayang lo HA?'
tapi gue sadar gue egois banget bilang gitu, toh dia udah milih dan pilahan yang dipilih bukan gue.
nah kalo udah kaya gitu lo mau gimana? lo pasti marah, lo mau nangis, lo mau bilang 'apasih yang lo liat dari dia'. iya kan? hm wajar lah.
udah ah gue bingung mau nulis apa lagi bye :D

LULUS + NEM

2010-05-09T12:57:00.006+07:00

woho, hello readers :O

I graduated! YES!

goodbye junior high school and welcome senior high school :)

I hope I can be accepted at the school that I want

oh yup, I want to share my score in National Examination too! wohooooooo

my score is 36.20 :D

nice score, but honestly I was a little disappointed with my NEM, because its doesn't fit with my target. but never mind, with nem like that I was very thankful to god, god knows whats the best for me, thanks god :)

I'm Ready!

2010-04-30T21:46:00.003+07:00

I'm ready! ready for what tash?
ready for everything, ready to forget you, ready to forget our memories, ready to see you with another girl --> for this I'm not sure ya :p, but I'll try it :)
I'm ready for all possibilities that will come.
I'm ready to not cry as usual, I'm ready to see you without remembering our memories.
Essentially, I'm ready to move on!
I said this doesn't mean I've to get someone to replace for you, ohoho I don't like you.
I try to not to think of you when I heard the song always be my baby -> you give me this song, I remember
and also when I heard the song when I'm with you and officially yours, remember? I always tell you to listen to this song haha
but now I don't care!
honestly, sometimes I still think about you and miss you.
I sometimes miss it when you smiled, hugged me and kissed me, maybe I will not forget it -_-
but only that, I don't love you anymore like the last time I said it to you.
people who have hurt me, I don't remember, I better forget
difficult? yaeh it's difficult.
but if I didn't try, when I can move on?
cry? already too many tears for you wkwk
find someone else to replace you?
sorry, I can't like that.
waiting you to come back? iuh waste my time.
I think you're a hypocrite and a pussy, oops sorry I said that.
but that's reality.
why a hypocrite?
because once you tell me you hate her.
but now? hahaha well I don't want to say it, too bad
and why I say you are 'queer'?
because you can only insult me on twitter. ha? why you can't say it in front of me?
okay, I tired to deal with your character.
I would rather forget you.
I'm ready to enjoy my new plain life! * Really, really plain without my memories about -----*
My way to forget you is block your acc, and never saw your profile again.
okay, maybe this is my last post about you, about 23. maybe lho ya :p, I don't promise :p hehehe

I'm Gonna Find Another You

2010-04-28T19:48:00.003+07:00

I'm Gonna Find Another You - John Mayer

It's really over, you made your stand
You got me crying, as was your plan
But when my loneliness is through, I'm gonna find another you

You take your sweaters
You take your time
You might have your reasons but you will never have my rhymes
I'm gonna sing my way away from blue
I'm gonna find another you

When I was your lover
No one else would do
If I'm forced to find another, I hope ~~she~~ he looks like you
Yeah and ~~she's~~ he's nicer too

So go on baby
Make your little get away
My pride will keep me company
And you just gave yours all away
Now I'm gonna dress myself for two
Once for me and once for someone new
I'm gonna do somethings you wouldn't let me do
Oh I'm gonna find another you

I really love this song, John Mayer I <3>

my move on song! SEE? I can! I must move on! I can move on like you boy :p dont worry :D

:3

2010-04-28T18:50:00.011+07:00

gue mau post tentang 3 barang yg ada di kamar gue.

yang pertama adalah, kotak musik ini. hmm sebenernya bukan kotak musik sih, kan bentuknya ga kotak. tapi udah lah gue seneng manggilnya gitu. Ini tuh dikasih sama ya adalah, tidak perlu dibahas. pokok nya yg paling gue suka dari ini adalah ada sprinke-sprinkle nya kalo malem terus gue taro deket lampu jadi lucu deh. oh ya satu lagi, suara dari sini selalu bikin gue tenang. s-e-l-a-l-u ♥

Ini dia yg gue maksud :

Yang kedua adalah ini, my teddy bear. Ini empuk cekaleee deh, enak banget kalo dipeluk buat tidur. jadi gue kalo mau tidur selalu meluk ini. gue mau ngasih nama ke boneka ini, tapi masih bingung, temen gue si anith bilang kalo namanya tuh *pip* aja. ah tapi gamau deh, kapan bisa move on kalo namanya dia -_- makanya kalo ada yg mau usul nama kasih tau gue ya! mention di @tasha_kartika (twitter)

LOOK, SO CUTE <3333>

dan yang terakhir boneka ku tersayang mybaby muah :* call her MINNIE :)
boneka ini gue dapet dari 'you-know-who* waktu ultah gue, harusnya ada mickey nya, tapi mickey nya ada di *you-know-who* udah dibuang kali sama dia --" ah tapi lupakanlah. yg jelas boneka ini gue sayang banget, padahal tuh abis putus bonekanya gue taro lemari, tp akhirnya gue jd susah tidur gitu *lebih ya gue* tapi emang kenyataannya gitu. yaudah gue ambil aja lagi, lagipula ga ada salahnya kan? lagipula waktu itu dia ngasih buat gue kan? yasudah sampe sekarang masih gue simpen bonekanya. bukan karena gue gamau move on atau apalah, tapi karena emang gue sayang + suka sama bonekanya BUKAN orang yang ngasihnya.

SEE? gue sayang banget sama ini :*

Look! My teddy & Minnie :)

I can't

2010-04-25T16:32:00.002+07:00

ohmy, I'm sorry I cant -_-
I cant forget you 'till now, I know you hate me, you move on, you have 'new' girlfriend.
I know, I know!
but, tell me boy why I cant forget you like you forget me?
you've made me like a fool for loving you.
one thing I know 'you teach me how to love you, miss you. but you NEVER teach me how to forget you'
my friend says' when you can move on if you keep talking about him? " and I realized, I'm stupid like this.
my friend was right, how can I move on if I continue like this?
I like this doesn't mean I didn't try.
I always try to forget you, ALWAYS!
but sometimes if I'm alone, and there when I miss you, when I can't forget you, when I want you there.
but, at the time with my friends, I laugh as usual, like nothing happened.
and next? I'm okay, I'm good, very good.
especially when I'm with Playmates, maybe I dont remember you at all
but when I'm alone and lonely at night, there was the time I remember you. because, usually you who accompanied me if my state of being alone like that.
and now? there's no you.
What I regret my decision to break up with you? the answer is NO.
I dont regret it, I just missed.
only that and nothing more.
I never ask you come back to me again, dont worry about that ;)
I just feel lonely when I'm alone and remember you.
but calm, I'm trying to move on like you :)
I dont want to keep hurting myself like this, you can move on tash :)

my song part III

2010-04-23T20:58:00.003+07:00

I love you but it’s not so easy to make you here with me
I wanna touch and hold you forever
But you’re still in my dream
And I can’t stand to wait ‘till nite is coming to my life
But I still have a time to break a silence
When you love someone
Just be brave to say that you want him to be with you
When you hold your love
Don’t ever let it go
Or you will loose your chance
To make your dreams come true
(When You Love Someone - Endah N Resa)

Where are you now, what have you found
Where is your heart, when I'm not around
Where are you now, you gotta let me know
(Where Are You Know - Britney Spears)

its hard for me to say I'm sorry
I just want you to know
hold me now
I really wanna tell you I'm sorry
(Hard To Say I'm Sorry - Boyz II Men)

Sometimes you move so well
It's hard not to give in
I'm lost, I can't tell
Where you end and I begin
(If I Never See Your Face Again - Maroon 5)

If I don't need you, then why am I crying on my bed?
I don't wanna run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
(If You're Not The One - Daniel Bedingfield)

Jika cinta dia jujurlah padaku
Tinggalkan aku disini tanpa senyumanmu
Jika cinta dia ku coba mengerti
(Jika Cinta Dia - Geisha)

Pergilah bersamanya disana
dengan dia yg ada segalanya
bersenang-senanglah sepuasanya
biarkan disini ku menyendiri
(Ingin Hilang Ingatan - Rocket Rockers)

I've exposed your lies
The underneath is no big surprise
Now it's time for changing
And cleansing everything
(Plug In Baby - Muse)

It's a little too late for you to come back
Say it's just a mistake
Think I'd forgive you like that
If you thought I would wait for you
You thought wrong
But you're just a boy
You don't understand
You don't listen to her
You don't care how it hurts
Until you lose the one you wanted
'Cause you're taking her for granted
And everything you had got destroyed
(If I Were A Boy - Beyonce)

See? you hurt me like this.
please, you make me cry you know?
You may not realize, all you have done? ha? not realize?
sensitive bit boy, please.
do you like her? leave me.
simple, just leave me alone.
that's what you want it? and you want her?
you said 'if I had a girlfriend, I would be more loving my girlfriend'
stupid! you say it in front of me!
you don't understand how the pain? at least, please DON'T say it in front of me. N-E-V-E-R!
if you love her, leave me. please don't torture me like this.
don't you know I cry? I know, you don't care if I cry, I'd better shut up right?
no one knows I'm crying, I hide it from everyone.
I don't want you to know I'm crying, I knew I was just a whiny, spoiled, and selfish.
I don't want to hurt her anymore, she's my friend. I really feel bad. I'm sorry, once again I'm sorry but I can not hide my feelings, sorry.
sorry I was too hurt you, sorry :(
she's better than me, I'm sure :)
choose her, I happy for you if you with her, I pray for you :)

my song part II

2010-04-23T20:47:00.004+07:00

You're the only one
That makes it feel like home
And I need you in my life
When you're not around I'm feeling
Like a piece of me is missing
When it feels like the day is closing in
Somehow I find the faith
To make it through
When I'm with you
(When I'm With You - Westlife)

Rain outside my window pouring down
What now, your gone, my fault, I'm sorry
Feeling like a fool cause I let you down
Now it's, too late, to turn it around
I'm sorry for the tears I made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
You made it clear when you said
I just don't love you no more
(Dont Love You No More - Craig David)

To say I'm in love with you
I'm officially everything you hope that I would be
This time I'll tell the truth
I'm officially wrong I know
For letting you go the way I did
Unconditionally more than I ever was before
I'm officially yours
(Officially Yours - Craig David)

It is love from the first
Time I pressed my hand to yours
Thinking, "Oh, is it love?"
(Oh It Is Love - Hello Goodbye)

You'll always be part of me
I'm part of your indefinitely
Boy, don't you know you can escape me
Oh darling, cause you'll always be my baby
(Always Be My Baby - David Cook)

since I Found You My World Seems So Brand New
you've Show Me The Love I Never Knew
your Presence Is What My Whole Life Through
since I Found You My Life Begin So New
now Who Needs A Dream When There Is You
for All Of My Dreams Came True
since I Found You
(Since I found You - Christian Bautista)

You found somebody who does it better than he can
No more making you cry
No more them gray skies
Girl we flying on a g-5, g-5
And we're leavin' never looking back again
(Leavin - Jesse McCartney)

You could be my unintended
Choice to live my life extended
You could be the one I'll always love
(Unintended - Muse)

Hapuslah cinta antara kita berdua
Karena kau sudah ada yg punya
Biarlah diriku memendam rasa ini
Jauh di lubuk hatiku
(Soulvibe - Biarlah "Hapuslah Cinta")

I love you, baby and if it's quite alright,
I need you, baby to warm the lonely nights.
(Cant Take My Eyes Off You - Muse)

Cause, I can’t keep on feelin’ the way I do
I can’t keep on, hiding my heart from you
I got to say something before
Someone else comes through,
I can’t keep on loving you,
From a distance
(Cant Keep On Loving You - Elliott Yamin)

my song

2010-04-23T19:53:00.005+07:00

Leona Lewis - Happy

Someone once told me that you have to choose
What you win or lose
You can’t have everything

Don’t you take chances
You might feel the pain
Don’t you love in vain
’cause love won’t set you free

I can’t stand by the side
And watch this life pass me by
So unhappy
But safe as could be

So what if it hurts me?
So what it I break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge,
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear my sound
Don’t care about all the pain in front of me
I just trying to be happy
I just wanna be happy, yeah

Holding on tightly
Just can’t let go
Just trying to play my role
Slowly disappear

But all these days
They feel like they’re they’re same
Just different faces
Different place
Get me out of here

I can’t stand by the side
Ooh, no
And watch this life pass me by
Pass me by

So what if it hurts me?
So what if I break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge?
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear my sound
Don’t care about all the pain in front of me
I’m just trying to be happy

Oh, happy
Oh

So when it turns that I can see???
This rope??
Victim??
Don’t say anything

Officially Missing You - Tamia

All I hear is raindrops
Falling on the rooftop
Oh baby tell me why’d you have to go
Cause this pain I feel
It wont go away
And today I’m officially missing you
I thought that from this heartache
I could escape
But I fronted long enough to know
There ain’t no way
And today
I’m officially missing you

Oh can’t nobody do it like you
Said every little thing you do
Hey baby say it stays on my mind
And I, I’m officially

All I do is lay around
Two years full of tears
From looking at your face on the wall
Just a week ago you were my baby
Now I don’t even know you at all
I don’t know you at all
Well I wish that you would call me right now
So that I could get through to you somehow
But I guess it’s safe to say baby safe to say
That I’m officially missing you

Well I thought I could just get over you baby
But I see that’s something I just can’t do
From the way you would hold me
To the sweet things you told me
I just can’t find a way
To let go of you

It official
You know that I’m missing you
Yeah yes
All I hear is raindrops
And I’m officially missing you

I'm sorry

2010-04-20T20:23:00.004+07:00

I apologize for making you jealous, I n-e-v-e-r mean to do it. N-E-V-E-R

Sorry I made you cry, ohmy I'm so sorry girl. I feel very guilty to you now -_-

ya allah, maafin gue deh ya udah bikin lo kaya gitu.

demi apapun deh, ngga pernah ada maksud gue bikin lo kaya gini -_-

maaf semaaf maafnya ya :(

the truth is 'gue sayang dia' tapi karena dia kakak gue.

ga lebih dari sayang gue ke temen2 yang lain.

kalo lo baca post gue yg sebelum ini, lo tau perasaan gue gimana.

gue yakin lo ngga bakal kaya gini.

kalo lo tau sayang gue ke siapa, maafin gue deh, gue tuh ngga pernah maksud kaya gini.

gue deket ya cuma sebagai kakak adek kok ga lebih, tolong percaya sama gue.

keep friendly oke?

I'm so sorry, gue akan coba ngejauh mungkin

I miss

2010-04-18T13:50:00.008+07:00

I miss my own Austin so damn much

I miss my 23

I miss someone who gave me this doll

I miss someone who gave me a surprise on my birthday

I miss someone who called me every night

I miss someone who says 'good night honey, I love you so much'

Honestly, I miss everything about you, about us

but now, austin NOT mine anymore, 23 = DEAD.

yayaya, dia bukan punya gue lagi. sadar lu tash! mimpi mulu -_-

tapi sekarang, I really miss my Austin -_-

emang sih lo beda banget sama Austin yg di Titanium, but for me, you're my Austin.

that's why I miss you <3

kangen b-a-n-g-e-t.

tau kangen ga lu? tau ga? kangen gue sama lu :p

sadar ga? nggak ya? yasudahlah kalo ngga sadar.

malah lebih bagus lo ngga sadar ya daripada lo sadar gue malah sakit hati -_-

lo kan udah move on, lo ngata2in gue malah.

oke, lo ngatain gue bales ngatain.

itu baru adil! lo yg mulai, tapi gue ngga nyangka aja lo bisa sejahat itu sama gue.

sumpah deh, tapi tenang aja gue bisa bales kok *tapi kalo gue bisa ya -_-*

I miss you - Boyz II Men

I've been feeling this emptiness for sometime
Trying make do
But my world has been so crazy
Living without u
I'm a man not ashamed to admit my falls
Now that I know
But the only thing that matters now
I should have never let u go
Now every night before I go to sleep, I pray
That the lord would someday some how
Send u back my way

Baby I miss u
I need to be back in your arms
I've never stopped loving u
My heart is where u belong
Baby I miss u
And for heaven and earth pass away
Lord please show me what to do
Tell me what to say
Cause we've come to far to let it slip away
Cause we've come to far to let it slip away

Couldn't understand many things in my life
And what u meant to me
Now I'm prepared to be everything that a man Is suppose to be
I don't wanna be alone no more
So then my heart can take it
That weeks have past
Since you've been gone
That I've thought that I could make it
Oh baby
So every night before I go to sleep, I pray
That the lord would one day somehow
Bring u back my way

Baby I miss u
I need to be back in your arms
I've never stopped loving u
My heart is where u belong
Baby I miss u
And for heaven and earth pass away
Lord please show me what to do
Tell me what to say
Cause we've come to far to let it slip away
Cause we've come to far to let it slip away

Baby don't know what else to say or do
Its hard to get through every night and everyday
Knowing I had u walk away
Its killing me inside
Feeling so strong I can't hide
So lord help me get through trying times
I'll do anything to have u back in my life

Baby I miss u
I need to be back in your arms
I've never stopped loving u
My heart is where u belong
Baby I miss u
And for heaven and earth pass away
Lord please show me what to do
Tell me what to say
Cause we've come to far to let it

Baby I miss u
I need to be back in your arms
I've never stopped loving u
My heart is where u belong
Baby I miss u
And for heaven and earth pass away
Lord please show me what to do
Tell me what to say
Cause we've come to far to let it
Baby I miss u

*that song for you*

after

2010-04-15T16:15:00.007+07:00

HELL-O!
eh iya, gue mau ngasih tau kalo gue putus lagi dengan "you-know-who" --> belum tau? baca post gue sebelumnya.
oh iya, FYI gue milih pilihan yang ke 3. gue bilang kan gue maunya milih yang 1, tapi kenyataannya gue malah milih yang ke 3.
tanya kenapaaaaaaa? KARENA dia sudah kelihatan tidak sayang lagi kepadakuuu~
nah terus kan kalo pacaran harus saling sayang kan? iya kan?
tapi kalo yang satu udah ngga sayang sama yg lain jadinya apa? makan hati kan?
ujung2nya kalo di pertahanin apa? putus juga kan?
kalo putus ujung2nya apa? lo seneng kan? lo bebas kan?
dan yg paling sering apa? gue juga yang NANGIS kan?
nah lho, sama aja kan ujung2nya?
daripada gue nangis nya terus2an tiap hari sampe mata gue bengep, mending sekarang selesainya. lo seneng kita selesai, gue? nangis mah pasti TAPI ngga se-histeris dulu.
nah, berarti sekarang anda bebas dong? iya sekarang saya juga bebas main sama sahabat2 saya tanpa takut anda marah atau anda cemburu.
tapi sayangnya, saya masih sayang anda -_-
lah bego lu tash kalo masih sayang kenapa diputusin! tulul!
ya abis gimana, kan tadi saya bilang dia sudah tidak sayang saya lagi -_-
dan dia kira gue mau move on ke 'one of my friend' yg bernama blablabla.
hello boy, gue tuh ngga suka ya sama dia, kalo gue suka mah udah dari kemaren2 gue pacarin, tapi sekarang apa? gue masih sayang kan sama lo, walaupun lo benci sama gue!
gue ngga bisa benci lo kaya lo benci gue, gue bilang gue mau move on, tapi susah taugalu? apalagi liat lo tiap hari -_-
gue maunya tuh kita putus bisa jadi temen, tapi apa? lo malah remove acc gue, lo malah benci gue. kalo tau kaya gini mungkin lebih baik gue ga usah kenal lo kali ya -_- but, thanks for teaching me that love does exist.

abis putus gue langsung baca 4 buku *sebenernya ngga ada hubungan juga sih*
1. Titanium *again*
2. Autumn In Paris
3. Hai Miiko!
4. Reffrain
tapi entah kenapa abis putus baca 4 buku itu langsung gue mikir 'mau ya punya pacar kaya cowok yg ada di novel itu' ea ngayal abis.

di buku Titanium, ada cowok namanya Austin, ah gila ngarep banget gue punya cowok yg baiknya nauzubileh kaya dia *oke berlebihan* dia tuh orangnya "talk LESS do MORE" ga banyak omong, tapi sekali ngelakuin bisa bikin speechless. Kalo cowok sekarang "talk MORE do LESS!" makanya romijn itu beruntung banget dapet cowok kaya austin *yaiyalah siapa yang ngga mau*

di buku ke2, yaitu autumn in paris, ada cowok namanya Tatsuya, ohmy ini orang bener-bener 1 diantara sejuta kali yak o_O setia parah, terus rela berkorban, dia lebih baik dia yang sakit daripada harus ngeliat Tara nangis, jarang banget kan cowok kaya gitu? yang ada sekarang cowok malah kebanyakan bikin cewek nangis.

buku ke3 adalah komik Hai Miiko, di komik ini ada Tappei. Ya walaupun dia itu jail banget sama miiko, tapi sebenernya tuh dia sayang sama miiko, cuma gengsi aja nunjukin nya. kalo miiko susah tappei tuh selalu ada, nih S-E-L-A-L-U ada, bahkan waktu miiko ngga bilang ke tappei kalo dia butuh tappei, tapi tappei selalu siap sedia buat miiko.

dan yang terakhir adalah reffrain, disini ada Nata. Nata sama Niki itu sahabatan dari kecil, nata tuh selalu sayang niki, tapi niki gatau kalo sayang nya nata itu lebih dari sahabat, nata sampe bikinin lagu buat niki teris dikirim pas hari valentine, tapi niki gatau kalo itu dari nata, pas nata pergi ke amrik baru deh niki sadar kalo sebenernya dia tuh sayang banget sama nata. dan ternyata nata balik dari amrik dan dia masih sayang sama niki walaupun udah kepisah 5 tahun, sayangnya buat niki ngga berubah sedikitpun.

SEE? betapa jarangnya cowok kaya mereka! kalo mau lebih lengkap mending baca deh bukunya *PROMOSI*

sampai disini dulu ya postingnya, bubye~

3 choice

2010-04-02T07:26:00.001+07:00

I got 3 choices for our relationship, especially for you.

1. we continue our relationship, but we both changed.

2. we break for a while, and we continued again, wait until you're not bored

3. we end our relationship.

I certainly don't want to choose option number 3, I choose option 1.

but you?

I'm sure you want to try option 3.

What don't you ever feel?

I'm tired you like this, you don't notice me, not giving me attention, you didn't care about what happens to me, you don't give me a message or call.

like you don't need me anymore.

I can't say this directly in front of you, I can only write it, because I know if I say directly to you, you must think I'm selfish and you'd be mad.

YOU WRONG! you are selfish!

you know? s-e-l-f-i-s-h!

you are too childish

you are only concerned with what you feel, but you never think how I feel.

hey boy, I'm your girlfriend, not your toy.

I have a feeling, I have a heart.

you should be thinking "a little" about my feelings.

yesterday, I really need your help, but you can't, you don't exist,

What I never asked for help? Why would I ever?

I only ask you to accompany me to go, only that

but what? what you can?

NO! you can't!

you know? at the time yesterday that I feel you don't love me anymore.

as we celebrate 4 months, you don't speak to me at all.

"I love you, I want us to lasting 'blah, that's a BIG bullshit!

I don't need the words, I just want you to indicate "yes, I need you, I care about you"

only that

I guess you want us to break again, ohmy I do not want it: (

but what the hell am I like this, you wouldn't care. I want to follow you, oh please I don't cry, it's too much pain and tears that I give to you.

Please, tell me the truth

2010-03-17T19:18:00.006+07:00

I hate myself for wanting to give up on you.

You make me feel like I can’t do anything. But I’ll keep going because I don’t want to hurt you, even if this relationship hurts me. I love you.

yeah this is my frontal emotions.

I have not been posting in this blog, and I miss it so much :*

can you see my words above?

I gave it to HIM.

I hope he realized.

Honestly, I was afraid to upset him, I know this is unhealthy, because then I would budge.

many people asking to me 'What are you tired of not budge?'

Honestly, I'm tired like this.

I tired to continue to beat you.

What you don't realize?

You treat me like complete shit all of the time, even though I’m your girlfriend.

It sucks, because when I fell in love with you, you were the sweetest boy alive and well now I can’t seem to fall out of love with you but at the same time I get hurt emotionally by you everyday. I don’t know what to do. A part of me is saying I should break up with you and another part is saying that I can’t live without you. I don’t know what to do, all I know is that I WILL NEVER STOP LOVING YOU.

I know you probably don't love me anymore, bored with me, and you already don't get along with me. Right?

I KNOW IT! though you never told me, I know that.

you change, you don't love me anymore.

This is fact that I know and I feel.

Forget about it, I'm T-I-R-E-D!

I just know you like it :')

Honestly, I feel guilty to one of my friends.

She likes my friend, who happened to be close with me.

to be honest, I NEVER meant to hurt you, N-E-V-E-R! I'm so sorry :(

I'm just a friend with him, I love him, but just a FRIEND.

and if you like him, approach him :)

I think, he'll respond you.

I apologize for my attitude toward it is to make you jealous, I'm sorry.

- ♥ -

2010-03-05T21:10:00.002+07:00

♥ People say I'm too good for you. That I know, but I also know that I have a chance of being different and making you settle down for just one girl.

♥ I can't accept the fact that I did nothing wrong but you just need to be alone. Don't fucking let me off easy, I want to know the truth.

♥ I'm sick of all these secrets saying "I LOVE YOU, BUT YOU DON'T LOVE ME" people like you DESTROY the word, it has absolutely no meaning anymore.

You don’t know when you’re in love it just happens & I’m sick of people being in a relationship for not even a week & claiming there in love?! what has this world come too? please stop posting secrets like those, it makes me sick. here is a new secret. I LIKE someone, whom doesn’t LIKE me back

♥ I honestly feel like you deserved better than me. I just wish you would understand that was the reason i was so mean to you. And now that I think about what was said, I feel terrible.

♥ I know I dont know much about love, but there's a person that is better than that.

I love him. He is mine and I am his. We are perfect (no kidding). But I am so afraid of losing this because I want this to last FOREVER<3

boring

2010-02-23T18:56:00.003+07:00

♥ I just want to say thank you. Even though you tore out my heart and stomped on it, I didn't believe I could love anyone until I met you. So thank you for teaching me that love does exist.

♥ I stil love you with every inch of my heart. I can't get you out of my mind. DAMN

♥ I honestly don't know how to describe how I feel about you other than love.
I fell in love at you the first time I ever saw you. I saw you in my classroom. I love you. It doesn’t even matter that you will never love me back.

♥ I used to believe we really were in love.
Now that means nothing. You always had your eyes on another girl, but I believed you still loved me. We’re done now, and you told me it’s because of different reasons. Now you’re with that girl, and act like you don’t care about me AT ALL. I can’t stand to see you any longer.

♥ I just wish we would stop all the bullshit. End all of our stubborn thoughts! And actually say what we mean! REALLY, I'm tired of it all!
You won’t read this, and I probably won’t either, but here goes nothing. I'm in love with you, and I have been for a long time. but I'm afraid to wait for you this long. We both know that we can do it, you just have to trust me. You say you do, but it’s time to grab my hand and jump.

♥ You just keep me hanging on.
Time and again, you tell me how much in love you are with your girlfriend. I sometimes wonder if you hate me and are doing this on purpose and are just trying to hurt me. I honestly don’t know what it’s going to solve, but maybe ust let you have the satisfaction of breaking a young girl’s heart.

♥ I'm feeling worse and worse each day and I can't tell him.
I keep making him believe that things are getting better. Every day things get worse. I really don’t know what to do . I’m so unhappy. Why can’t he notice?

♥ I keep updating my twitter status. I want you to notice me so bad.

♥ You broke up with me. I liked you a lot, it hurt. We got back together. But now, you want to break up AGAIN with me. To be honest, I hope we do break up. I'm not so sure about us anymore, and I don't know if I can trust you

♥ Seeing you today made me realize how much greater you are than I could ever be. But I love how you are completely oblivious. I need someone like you in my life, especially now.

♥ I don't want to be your best friend anymore for the fact that later on in life, we won't be best friends & that KILLS me. Since you graduated, it hurts that i won't be able to talk to you when ever I can

bye xoxo :*

♥

2010-02-15T21:12:00.005+07:00

love.
is not how you forget, but how you forgive.
love.
not you heard, but how you understand
love
is not what you see, but what you feel
love
is not how you let go, but how you survive.

* I thought you were the one person that I didn't have to be scared of and that wouldn't judge me. Really, you judge me more than anyone I've ever known. Thank you for making me more self-conscious. p.s. I wasn't "ignoring" you. I'm just the only one who knows when to stop.

* I wish you weren't an only-child so you would be able to suffer from this loneliness that I am suffering from, so you would want me back because I want you back, and so you would know what its like for a person to be missing, because you are missing from my life. But you seem to be doing just fine without me and that terrifies me and I can't take it anymore.

* I miss the person you used to be. I hate the person you've become but I love YOU. I hate the person I've become. I hate how jealousy always gets the best of me. Yes, I know hate is a strong word but that's how much I strongly hate this.

* I love him and I want to be with him more than anything in the world. I can't, though, because I already have a boyfriend that I am not ready to leave.

* Today, when I saw those girls talking to you, I felt so jealous. What hurts me most is that I have no reason to be jealous because you don't notice them that way. But I just wish I could talk to you like that too. Please, let me in. I promise I won't hurt you.

* I want to tell you how I really feel.. that I love you and it's killing me to see you with her.. but I have a strong feeling in my gut that's telling me you'll just laugh in my face....

* YOU ARE THE BIGGEST FAKE I HAVE EVER MET, YOU'VE MADE UP EVERYTHING I THOUGHT I KNEW ABOUT YOU, EVEN PEOPLE, COMPLETELY SAD. AND NOW THAT YOU REALISE WE KNOW IT, AREN'T YOU BEING A LITTLE BITCH ABOUT IT ?

* when you told me you missed me. I worked myself up to believe it meant you really did, every day with every hurtful thing you do I find it so much easier to dislike you that bit more.
you’re not half the person I thought you were, and part of me wishes you would feel the same hurt I do and think back to now and wish you hadn’t been so cruel. Dreamers often dream thoughts you never knew existed. I didn’t realise just how much I want you back.

(yang gue tulis, ngga ada maksud apa apa kok. Cuma mau ngungkapin aja, jadi kalo ada yang ngerasa. Maaf banget ya *big hugs* :*)

Quotes

2010-02-14T20:08:00.003+07:00

I wanted to share some Quotes from http://blogsecret.tumblr.com/. I hope you like :)

ENJOY IT AND HAPPY READING!

* I wish I had told you I loved you.
Every time I remember the fact that you’re moving and I’ll never see you again, I want to hurt myself badly. Maybe then you wouldn’t leave. I regret not telling you that I love you. And even though we can still talk via internet, it will never be the same and I want you to know that I’ll never find anyone else like you and I don’t expect to.

* I'm surrounded by people who say they're my friends, but when it comes down to something important, will you be there for me? I don't think you will. You ditched me before in my time of need, and if you can do something like that once, I have no doubt you can do it again.

* The reason I restricted my calories and lost weight so fast was because I wanted you. Now that I'm a size smaller, but eating well again, I'm terrified of putting on all the weight I lost. But things with you haven't changed. I still want you, and you still think I'm invisible.

* The real reason why I wanted to join the military was not because I was patriotic, but because I wanted to get away from the rejection of not having you. I wanted to see if you'll really miss me if I actually left....

* It hurts me a little more inside when you talk to me about how close you are with her and makes me sad when you say that you are keeping things from me. I know that I may not talk that much like she does with you, and I'm sorry about that. You say that I don't get jealous easily, but I really do, even if I don't show it. & I'm scared that if I tell you, you might choose her over me.. I hope you really mean it when you tell me you love me..

* Ever since he broke my heart, I've never been the same.
I don’t have the same passion I used to have. I’ve found a wonderful, amazing guy who likes me but I still find myself straining to grasp this. I don’t want to hope too much, but I already know he’s moving at the end of summer, sent of and I’ll probably never see him again. But, I still want to like him, I want to be happy again. I don’t want to sound like some lovestruck, crazy, typical, dramatic teenager, but it’s true. I find myself wondering if I’ll ever be able to open up again and throw myself into things. What if I never trust people like I trusted him?

* I can't take it. I don't know how I feel about you anymore, but even if I do have feelings or you, you're going to be gone by the end of summer. You're never going to read this, but I really love you as a best friend. But I don't know if we're going to work out like that.

* I told you how much I loved you. you told me you loved me with all your heart. the next couple of days you got yourself a girlfriend. you call that love? I call it betrayal, but the most FUCKED UP thing is... I forgive you

* I hate everything about you. Everything you say is gay ass shit. Please fucking die.

* I want to still love you, but I can't stand your personality. but I don't want to lose you ---> It's so me!!!!

* I'm unhappy with our relationship, but I can't seem to let you go.

* Seeing you today made me realize how much greater you are than I could ever be. But I love how you are completely oblivious. I need someone like you in my life, especially now.

* I want you, but it seems like everything is holding me back from you. Why do you have to leave so soon?

* I'm in love with my classmates. I was sure he loved me too by the lies he told me. After all the drama we went through, I still cannot stop thinking about you. I tell everyone I don't give a damn about you, but the truth is if you asked me to be with you, I would say yes in a heartbeat. I hate you, because you make me love you.

* I really wish you'd say the words I want to hear.
I want to spend the rest of my life with you. I’m afraid to say anything because I’m afraid you’ll get freaked out. I start to tear up everytime I write something on tumblr about you, or think about it. I’m so unbelievably in love with you. Head over heels in love.
So I’m saying it to you here.
I love you babycakes. I want to be with you, seriously, forever. Please just give us that chance. Your perfect, and I want that part of you I lost back.

* I didn't know who to choose. Now I do. But I'm not going to, because I'm scared it'll be the wrong decision, even though I know it's right...I guess I'm just scared I'll want him back

* I thought we were in love until you left me for her. Now she's not in your life anymore. I knew it wouldn't last long. So we're back at it again. But now as "Friends". Something is telling me I'm being used as a rebound. But I cover those feelings up w/ the simple fact that I'm still in love w/you. I wanna Know where your heart is, but I'm afraid to ask, afraid of the response I'll hear.

* I really like you, but sometimes it feels as if you don't care about me as much as I care about you. You tell me we’re a couple, but it’s hard to believe when it seems like you’re hiding it from everyone. I want to end it with you because I think this is unhealthy for me, I just don’t want to tell you.

* I miss the person you used to be. I hate the person you've become but I love YOU. I hate the person I've become. I hate how jealousy always gets the best of me. Yes, I know hate is a strong word but that's how much I strongly hate this.

* My best friends told me I changed for the worst but never told me in what.I wish I could change but this is who I am now and if they're my friends they would love me no matter what.

he's back

2010-02-13T17:54:00.006+07:00

he's back to me.
yes yes, he's back after 4 days we broke up.
he says he still loves me.
when he said it, I'm very happy.
he held my hand, he hugged me, he kissed me.
aaaa, I really love him.
I never want to break up with him again.

6 days after he returned.
we're fighting again.
and you know what's the problem?
still the same problem yesterday.
that is about my closeness with them.
he never understood my relationship with them.

I and they were just friends, until any time would be best friends will not be more than that!

but you keep thinking I'm and they were more than that.
I beg you, believe me.

I am afraid that it now is, we'll broke up 'again'.
honestly, that's all I fear.
I don't want out of you.
You said I had to choose, stay away from them or away from you.
when I heard it, I feel you are very selfish.
I can't choose between you and them.
you and they are just as important to me.

I promise you said it was only 'fake promise'

you are wrong, my promise is not fake promises!

but I need time for a little away from them.

please, give me time for it.
not easy for a bit away from them.
try you were me, what can you stay away from friends who really understand and can make you laugh?
can you stay away from them in a week?

can you? I think not, because I can't like that.
I know you're jealous, I know you don't like them, and I also know, you hate when I make friends with them.
actually, it's not your right, to forbid me friends with them, but I was right, to friends with anyone, including them.

you never felt the difficulty away from those people who you care about
I love them, they are like my own family.
you? you're very important for me and I am very, very loved.
honestly, I wanted to cry.
but now I'm not crying, not for now.
I'll try to keep my promise to a little bit away from them.

Now we do not have communication, it will you.
I will follow you.
You do not need me? I need you.
you want me to stay away from you? I'm sorry I didn't want to.
I too love you.

please give me time for that, I hope you understand

still

2010-02-04T14:39:00.006+07:00

1 day after we broke up.

it was the same with yesterday -_-

and I still hoping like yesterday, too.

Stupid I hope things very-very unlikely.

you definitely don't want to come back to me right?

and I really want us to be a relationship again.

hahaha :D

stupid, and I've promised to forget.

but the fact now is, I still continue to write about you.

and still in love with you.

It means it's too hard to forget you :'(

You too difficult for me to forget, it was only yesterday we -__- oh well, forget -_-

You've forgotten me and don't love me anymore like before.

you know? I was watching you from the balcony, but you don't see me.

OK, that's better than I have seen you throw in front of my face.

It would be very painful for me.

I'm afraid you back to her, really. I'm afraid.

My reason is not going to end because I don't want to see you back to her.

I would never willingly if that happens.

I know, I'm selfish like this, but I can't lie to myself.

I love you, and I want you BACK TO ME, not back to her.

You say I'm not trash for you, but now what? you think I'm a bad person.

I know, I was wrong.

I hurted you, but why do you respond to it with with her?

I can't, I couldn't.

I will NEVER be able to see YOU BACK TOGETHER WITH HER -_-

I beg you, please keep your promise this time.

promise you'll never go back to her, please.

I want you to keep your promise to me.

you know? I miss you now.

I miss you say''I love you '

I miss your nag.

concern you, understanding you, your laugh, your voice, all about you.

I want it back, but I realized it was just my dream.

we will never be together again

last time I see you, why my heart hurt?

turns out, I realized that if you are not mine anymore.

ok, stop crying.

I'll tried to move on, wish me luck :'')

broke up :')

2010-02-03T20:24:00.019+07:00

today we broke up.

you glad we broke up? I didn't: '(

I'm sad we broke up.

but this want you, I can't do anything else.

you say, you hurt.

you say, I changed.

sorry, I never intend to do that.

you say, I was too close to them.

sorry, but if I had to choose. I prefer them.

they are my best friends.

when I was sad. Who is telling me not to cry? them! NOT YOU! while you? you were happy to see me cry.

Okay, I know I was wrong.

but, have not I've apologized many times to you?

What do you want to listen to my apology?

NO, you don't want to!

maybe you think, I just weepy girl, who could only cry but could not do anything.

provided you know, my friends told me I had to decide our relationship first.

but I don't want, I want to wait until the 14Th February, Valentine's Day.

I hope the day we can be better, but it turns out, you decide our relationship today :'(

you know I cry when you say that?

sure you know, but you don't care.

sure you don't care, I know.I'm just a toy for you.

You think I do not really love you? you're wrong.

I really love you until this moment too.

but I don't want to sad all the time, I had to keep my life ;")

I'm just scared, you go back to her

to your ex-girlfriend; '(

if after you break up with me, then you back to her.

indeed, I'll hate you.

I know, you're not mine anymore.

you are free now, you are free to choose anyone who VERY MUCH BETTER than I am.

but I beg you, don't come back to her.

It would be very painful for me.

honestly, I'm just friends with them.

I have no other feelings to them.

I loved them as a friend, but I love you as a boyfriend.

You misunderstand me and them.

but never mind, our relationship has ended.

nothing needs to be explained again.

everything has happened, now I can only hope.

you happy, you easily forget about me, about us.

maybe for you, it's very easy

but for me not.

I need a lot of time to forget you.

remember my promise to you first? I promise I will not forget you till whenever. I'll keep my promise, I will not forget you.

you know, until now I was hoping we could date again.

HA HA HA, I knew it was just my dream, you don't want to come back to me.

you already bored and no loves me anymore, I stupid think like that.

I'll try not to cry for you, because once you've told me not to cry ;")

I have to remember, many people who loved me, but who understand me just you ;'(

Tasha okay, don’t cry anymore

thank you for everything, all the memories, all love, all the attention and understanding. That means a lot to me.

Let me be honest this time, For the last time, I just wanted to say "I love you"

nieno goodbye, I always loved you ;'(

Lirik

2010-01-07T19:18:00.009+07:00

If someone said that I forgot you

Do not you hear

If someone said I was faithful

Do not you hear

Lots of love came over me, I refused

It all just because I love you

If someone said I was not good

Do not you hear

If anyone tell me changed

Do not you hear

Lots of love came over me, I refused

It all just because I love you

When you remember me, I remember you

When you miss me, I also miss you

I know you always wanted me

I do the best I can do

God knows I love you

If you do not believe me

Pain I

If you'd heard what they said than I am

Sad I

Lots of love came over me. I refused

It all just because I love you .. Only you .

When you remember me, I even remember you

When you miss me, I also miss you

I know you always wanted me

I do the best I can do

God knows I love you

When you remember me, I even remember you

When you miss me, I also miss

I know you always wanted me

You know I also want to with you

I know you always wanted me

I do the best I can do

God knows I love you

♥ tasha ♥

What I feel -_-

2010-01-05T22:42:00.004+07:00

This song just what I feel now. I can't say this, but I can only write it and share on my blog readers -_-

KISS - BECAUSE I'M A GIRL

It's impossible to understand what's going through a guy's heart.
You told me that you wanted me and now that I've given you everything, you tell me you're leaving.
You told me that it was the first time you felt this way, and said that I was special.
I believed you. . .
And it was my happiness
You should have told me if your feelings has faded.
I had no idea, and I continued you depend on you.
Altough I say, I hate you now, I'll be missing you.
Because I'm a girl, to whom love is everything.
They say that when you give a guy all he wants, he quickly gets bored.
And now I know that's the truth.
And altough I tell myself, I'll never be tricked by love again.
I fall in love , and my heart is broken again.
You should have told me if your feelings has faded.
I had no idea, and I continued you depend on you.
Altough I say, I hate you now, I'll be missing you.
Because I'm a girl, to whom love is everything.
They say that when you give a guy all he wants,he quickly gets bored.
And now I know that's the truth.
And altough I tell myself, I'll never be tricked by love again.
I fall in love , and my heart is broken again.
You should have told me if your feelings has faded.
I had no idea, and I continued you depend on you.
Altough I say, I hate you now, I'll be missing you.

Please, don't break the hearts of girls, who'll do anything for love.
I didn't know that living this life while being loved would be so hard.
Altough I say, I hate you now, I'll be missing you.
Because I'm a girl, to whom love is everything.

Altough I say, I hate you now, I'll be missing you.
Because I'm a girl, to whom love is everything.

*The Girl*
"Today we broke up.
You told me to meet someone better than you, and be happy.
You're just like the other guys.
What happened to when you told me that you love me?
Honestly, I don't want you to be happy.
What am I going to do if you really forget about me?
I'm in so much pain, more pain than I can bare. . .
Because I'm in still in love with you."

Please, don't break the hearts of girls, who'll do anything for love.
I didn't know that living this life while being loved would be so hard.
Altough I say, I hate you now, I'll be missing you.
Because I'm a girl, to whom love is everything.

Altough I say, I hate you now, I'll be missing you.

*The Man*
"There's someone in love with. . .
Altough I can't be with her now.
I'm still in love with her"

Because I'm a girl, to whom love is everything.

"open this link, if you want to view this video http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=F2et1sDa0B8"

"I only hope that you read my blog. You feel what I feel. And I hope we can as before. Please honey, I just want you to care. I'm sorry if I'm wrong about you. please, forgive all my mistakes. I just want you to know. I love you so much more than you know, even though I know, you never love me :'( AND MY LAST HOPE YOU ARE SENDING A MESSAGE TO ME AND YOU WILL CALL ME. Please Nieno, I just want it"

Holiday

2009-12-29T14:18:00.004+07:00

it's time to holiday!
dan gue pasti tak lain tak b ukan ke BANDUNG.
gue juga sebenernya heran, nyokap gue ngga ada tempat wisata lain apa selain di bandung -__-
tapi tiap gue tanya, nyokap bilang "kan kakek nenek kamu di bandung, kamu ngga kangen apa sama mereka?"
ya aku kangen lah ma, masa ngga -__-

TAPI yang paling menyebalkan adalah, gue disini selalu lama dan pulang waktu udah mau masuk!
ITU TUH MENYEBALKAN TAU GA!
kan gue ngga mau juga liburan membusuk di bandung terus, ya emang sih disini enak tapi kan gue juga mau pergi sama temen2 gue, dan yang penting kangen gue sama bokap gue :D
dan ya nyokap gue tuh suka lama2in di bandung, ya gue tau nyokap gue maunya tuh gue sekeluarga pindah ke bandung -__-
untungnya bokap gue ngga setuju, kalo setuju gimana nasib gue o_O

Oke lanjut, gue baru selesai baca 3 buku, yaitu "Harry Potter and The Goblet of Fire, Eclipse, dan Titanium"
dan gue paling cepet baca dan paling suka "Titanium" bukan berarti yang lain gue ngga suka yaa.
ngga tau kenapa, tapi cerita bagus banget dan gue suka banget sama karakternya ♥
dan buat Austin "you' re so sweet boy. I hope I can get boyfriend like you" hahaha ♥
*austin itu salah satu tokohnya*

Oke deh, sampai sini aja dulu ya postnya.
Gue ol di warnet nih masalahnya -__-
XOXO Tasha :)

1 Month ♥

2009-12-23T19:06:00.002+07:00

Yippie, today it's First Month with my Boy ♥

seneng ngga? Ya seneng dong :D
hmm sebenernya sih gue sempet marahan gitu kan sama dia, gara2 yaa adadeh -__- *terlalu vulgar kalo gue bahas disini karena nanti gue publish*

hmm, gue kan marahan nah terus ada tweet nya dia gitu yang bikin gue nyesek banget :

"kalo kayak gini baru sadar, buat apa lanjut"

nah abis itu langsung deh JENG JENG JENG, crying like a baby -_-
cengeng amat ya gue, dikit dikit nangis -_-
nah terus kan gue diem tuh lama, gue mikir bego ya gue kalo ngga baikan, masa besok sebulanan gue malah marahan.
Yasudahlah, akhirnya gue yang ngalah.
Emang gue kok yang lebay, gue yang salah, gue yang cengeng, gue yang harusnya minta maaf :')
yaudah kan ya, akhirnya gue nelfon tuh.
Langsung dong gue bilang maaf, eh dia bilang :

"aku ngga marah sama kamu, aku kecewa sama kamu. Aku ngga nganggep kamu pelarian, kalo aku gitu harusnya aku udah mutusin kamu."

Eh gue cuma bilang "maafin aku" sambil mau nangis kan, ngga lama telfon gue tutup terus gue bilang "nanti aku telfon lagi". Padahal mah bukan karena apa2, soalnya gue nya ngga kuat, guenya mau nangis denger dia ngomong kaya gitu -__-
Yaudah kan yaa, akhirnya gue telfon lagi.
Nah terus dia bilang "udahan nangisnya?" gue heran kok dia bisa tau ya gue nangis -_-
pokoknya setelah ngomong ngomong BLA BLA BLA, akhirnya SAYA BAIKAN DONG :]
yaudah kan gue baikan, terus nunggu gitu sampe jam 12 hehe

Nah terus gue ada panggilan baru baru buat dia, yaitu "Nyienyo"
kenapa gue manggil dia gitu? karena ade guu yang paling kecil Rara nyebut dia kaya gitu nah terus temanku anith juga nyebut nya gitu, makanya gue pikir lucu juga panggilannya haha :D

Yaudah kan ya, udah jam 12 tuh mata gue ternyata tinggal 5 watt, udah ngucapin sebulan kan, hihi ♥
nah terus dia nanya :
D : "kamu ngantuk yang?"
G : "ehm"
D : "tidur yang"
G : "iya"
D : "tidur yang"
G : "iya sayang"
terus gue tutup deh telfonnya, hihi dan gue tidur karena gue udah nagntuk banjet :O
ILYSM Nieno sayang ♥

oke deh ya, sampai sini dulu hehe
XOXO tasha :)

It's tuesday

2009-12-15T21:22:00.007+07:00

sumpah ya, tadi gue bt abis di sekolah -_-
tau ngga kenapa? karena MATA GUE BENGKAK.

Pertanyaan (P), Jawaban (J)

P : "kenapa mata gue bengkak?"
J : "karena gue nangis."
P : "kenapa gue nangis?"
J : "soalnya nieno marah sama gue"
P : "kenapa nieno marah sama gue?"
J : "karena pp gue"

Nah makanya gue nangis semaleman, mana ngga ada sms, dia ngga peduli sama gue -_-
Nah terus nih, di sekolah gue nangis kan, apalagi pas pulang.
Pas nieno ninggalin gue, langsung gue nangis tuh *anjrit malu gue*
Nah terus pas dibawah tangga nangis lagi gue, pas di lapangan NANGIS LAGI GUE
GILAK NGGA GUE? GILAK BANGET YEEEE
NANGIS MULU KERJAANNYA.

sebenernya nangis tuh bego tah, gue ngerasa bego banget, soalnya nangis ngga nyelesain masalah sedikit pun.
Tapi ngga tau kenapa gue malah sering nangis -_-
Pokoknya gue bad mood banget deh tuh sampe Quantum aja gue badmood, sampe gue makan aja ngga mau *lebeh abis*
Yaudah akhirnya gue ngantuk banget tuh pas pelajaran pa martop, mau tidur.
Nah pas nyampe rumah, gue buka hp ada 2 sms, dan ternyata TIDAK ada sms dari dia.
langsung deh kisut tampang gue, tapi ngga nangis lagi kok tenang aja :D

Nah terus gue sms cile kan, ada anith juga tuh.
tapi cile balesnya lama banget, nah kata agus gue disuruh sms duluan.
Nah ngga lama sms cile dateng, dia bilang "Tenang, nanti nieno mau nelfon"
Disitu langsung seneng dong gue, gue harap beneran :D

dan TERNYATA, DIA BENERAN NELFON GUE.
WIHI SENENG DONG GUE, dia minta maaf dan pokoknya gitu lah
ah nieno, love you so much deh hihi ♥

Udah ah, sampe sini dulu
Bye, XOXO tasha :)

saturday night

2009-12-12T21:06:00.009+07:00

yeah, hari ini malam minggu dan gue ngga kemana2 -_-
Malahan hari ini gue sama ade gue nonton 3 DVD sekaligus.
Yaitu :
1. Inkheart
2. UP
3. Pink Panther 2

Dan sekarang gue baru selesai nonton :D
Dan langsung online *seperti biasa*

Waktu ditengah2 film Pink Panther ade gue tiba2 ngomong :
A = Ade gue
G = gue

A : "teh siapa yang sms?"
G : "mau tau aja kamu" *sambil jauhin hp dari ade gue*
A : "cowo nya ya? siapa tuh namanya Nino ya?"
G : "yee apasih kamu Nino mulu"
A : "bilang aja iya. Teh kenapa sih dapet pacarnya ngga jauh2 ada no no nya juga?"
G : "takdir"
A : "emang yang waktu itu kemana teh?"
G : "mati, udah gue buang ke laut! Udah nonton jangan banyak tanya" *tampang sensi*
A : "santai teh, gausah ngamuk yee"

Oh ya, ngga tau kenapa sekarang gue lagi suka liatin foto2 nya Skandar Keyneys
YAAA, HE'S SO HANDSOME AND CUTE BOY ♥ ♥ ♥

Look he's Picture :

Handsome right?
I THINK YES ♥
Hihihi

OKE, sampai sini dulu ya.
bye bye and good night
XOXO tasha ♥

Second Post :D

2009-12-11T22:47:00.004+07:00

icik, icik bandel ya gue jam segini masih online :D
padahal harusnya gue udah tidur -_-
Mata gue tinggal 5 watt -_-

Question : Why i'm not sleep?
Answer : BECAUSE I'M WAITING YOUR MESSAGE BOY -_-

YA, betul sekali saya nunggu sms, lebeh amat gue nunggu sms orang nyampe jam segini.
Iyalah, buat lo mah sampe jam berapa juga gue tungguin.
Serius deh.
Jangan marahan lagi ya, kan kita janji ngga akan marahan lagi -_-
Aku ngga cemburu, sumpah deh.
Jangan marahan dong yaaaaaa

*nieno jangan marahan dong sayang :(*

My First Post

2009-12-11T17:40:00.001+07:00

Big thanks for Anita Puspita Sari :)

hehe, karena dia yang udah edit skin blog gue

Tadi Cile, Lala, Ibon, Anith kerumah gue.

kita nonton Apartement 1303, dan you know what???

KITA PADA TERIAK SEMUA, hahaha

abis nonton kita buka facebook kan yaa, eh terus liat fb temennya cile gitu dan kita buka, disitu kita TERIAK *lagi dan lagi*

karena melihat foto dia sama pacarnya, mupeng abis -___-

oke deh, gue mau mandi dulu

bye bye